i crave for your love <3

2008-02-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

Alright,Stalkers have been reading and nagging about me not blogging, so I guess here I am to make them satisfied (:

I'm too busy or just to lazy to post! ):

Common test and stuff this week, but not prepared, Tomorrow's physics,I'm gonna blame you people who are reading this cause you didn't let me study! Your fault your fault!right.

I was late once again today! And Mr lim, He bloody hell has a meeting and hasn't returned me my ezlink card!I had to pay busfare okay! 60cents! I can go 6 times to the toilet(ECP)! 3 times to the toilet with tissue! see how much money I could have saved! TSK TSK!

Bus to parkway with Shakyna to meet Glenn and Laila.Thanks Shakyna for accompanying me! Main reason for going parkway was to meet Glenn to get his snakebites done! (:

He was like super scared! I hope it was in line (: Sorry if it isnt ): and sorry if it hurt alot! who ask you buy such a huge stud!Your fault! (: Next week the other side yes? Teng Lon Teng Lon! I think you're so cool! Teng Lon Teng Lon! (:

Okay,Somehow, You're getting out of hand! By saying I hate you to someone who's trying to help you, isn't something I respect, actually I'm disappointed in you,very disappointed.If you can't say something nice,don't say anything at all.This isn't the person I used to know.I'm starting to dislike this person,when is the old you coming back? Come home soon please, cause I'm missing you ):

Take a breath I'll pull myself together.
ITILYTL , BIGYWNFTSWID ):

2008-01-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

Posting for Bestest BEST friend (:

Its like 13 jan already , and I didn't post up my new year resolution yet . I'm so lagged man!

So here it goes.... Should be realistic ones this year.

1. study like super duper ultra hard !
2. Family to move on and accepts my late cousins death.
3. pass my malay , B4 please?
4. stop swearing
5. less outing
6. hope my friends will do well in O's , I'll wish for ya'll k (:
7. party like hell after O's baby ! (this one confirm will fulfill!)

alright , So Jan for me is basically coded as East Zone / Birthday .

yeah , matches are like starting in 4 days time ? thats like fast man! like zoom zoom SUPERMAN!

Alright so I haven't been going out so often due to lots of work + netball trainings. Yesterday during CCA open house , recuited many secondary onessssss ! wooohoooo ! go netball , go netball , its your birthday!

Then tp with many peeepsss . Kinda cool , everyone was like super social , i like i like ! Then headed to Bugis to meet chunaik and wilson , Douby to meet super tall girl ! shes like 180++ or maybe 190++ crazy one ! eat too much long beans , and you won't believe it , she's 15!!!!!! kill me please , why am i so short ):

home with chunaik and wilson , suppose to sheesha but it aint working . sadly , I'm super sorry guyssss . After they left , Best came with ryan,russ,weixian . Wanted to do same thing was not working again, Don't know why they still came when I said it was spoilt. Oh well. Best went home early ):

I'm sick now, this sucks . talked to melvin on the phone till like 3 . Yay! Long time didn't talk to him, I miss you lah "babe" , happy ? Thanks for caring anyway.

Everyone friends were over last night. So cool ! but shit I brought the most friends.

I'm gonna get a phone later in like an hours time ! woohoo text me people !

Birthday coming soon , hope its not on netball match day ): wish for me people!

2008-01-01T18:30:00.000+08:00

So I'm back like 2 days ago. Jetlag , god knows how I'm gonna wake up tomorrow to attend school man!

25days... Many things happened i think ? Happy to see best after a long time!

Yesterday I woke up at like 2. I missed my bed. Kendra walked over then went to Simpang Bedok for prata. Linken's place after that. Couldn't talk in his house cause he was talking to a girl who easily gets jealous ? weird...............

Then cabbed home , stopped in the middle of parbury avenue .Kendra walked towards the left , I walked towards the right. Driver must have thought we were weird.

Home. Grandmas . Talk with Mariya. Omg I miss you man! 3 days before you leave ):

Met up with Charmain , Ryan , Weixian , Adalia , Russel and People.

Cabbed to lims then cabbed back to Parkway.Bus to Suntec with Weixia and Adalia.Marina , met Chunaik , Wilson , Alex + girl , Chad + girlfriend , metallica guy + girlfriend. Fireworks.

Thennnnnn .... HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

I'm starting to get lazy to type.
Met with Jiayu , Tammy , Xinyi (I see you again) , Xialan ? and Ah pui + gf . Tiredddddddd! Waiting for cabs on new years is super torturous man! All I see is HIRED. Can dieeeeeee!

And when best + ryan got a cab , they left us all. WOW thanks man , thanks. You're such a great friend! Greattttt!

Thanks Melvin , but thank god you didn't . It would have cost a bomb (:

Then 5 plus cabbed home. Slept at 6.

Suppose to go out with Mariya, I woke up to late, so I guess tomorrow ?

Dear God , the only thing I ask of you is to hold him when I'm not around, When I'm much too far away.

2008-01-01T17:37:00.000+08:00

Didn't expected that from you.

2007-12-02T02:00:00.000+08:00

I've been super restless or maybe I just feel helpless lately. Everything seems to pass so fast that I can't keep track.I'm leaving in 3 days ): I don't wanna leave but at the same time , I don't wanna stay either.

I don't wanna be sad but no matter where I go , where I am , I'll still have the memories with me. I miss you cousin , I miss you very much.

Today,Went town to meet to pass Chunaik his stuff. Went to meet Sharmaine and Kailiang too. Played pool , was kinda off today, really off ): .Went home alone , saw anthony and shirley on the bus.

I'm feeeeeeeeling very down now. ):

It’s times like these you learn to live again
It’s times like these you give and give again
It’s times like these you learn to love again
It’s times like these time and time again

2007-11-30T02:49:00.000+08:00

Omg I didn't get my pay today ): and clara stop calling me money face , I'm broke you see! hahaha . so yeah you've guessed it , went to work today after like a week. Work was like super boring , like seriously super boring! Mr Aaron wore like basketball shorts and tshirt and POUCH to work ! Omg so unglam I tell you.

After work , So irritated I didn't get my pay.Will get it on monday though. Went to meet Samuel after work at eunos there. Slacked for a few hours.Long time didn't see him , Yay! Then went to his house for awhile , watched some chinese drama he's addicted to.

Cabbed home at 11.40 I think.

People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything’s ganna be alright

2007-11-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

I've never felt this way in my life.I've never cried this hard before. Anwer, I miss you ): .

When I saw you at the hospital , lying on the bed I just burst into tears. Cuz, I never wanted you to go. Remember we were suppose to watch movies together ? But at least boy , you're not suffering anymore. You're in a much better place (:

I know you'll never read this unless there are computers in heaven and you know my url (:

ohhhhh Anwer , I miss you so much.

I still can't believe you're gone ): , All I can do now is pray, I'll visit you tomorrow . I hope uncle will be fine too. Everything just hurts so badly now.

I'm proud of you, I've never seen you shed a tear before. You were so strong, you never gave up. Neither did anyone around you.

Uncle told me that whenever he cried , you would say ; Dad , why are you crying , no one has died.

Remember the times you would complain you look like a chink, I miss that! I wanna hear you complain or speak , just one word ! please ):

Every day that passes is a day that I get closer to seeing you again,We miss you Anwer... and we won't stop ,cause we can't stop.

It's kinda hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smilin down
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still living you're life, after death

Rest in peace Anwer.

2007-11-19T12:37:00.000+08:00

Omg , my mum is like nagging cause she lost a hanger , omg , She can really join guiness world record for most nagging! urghhhh. who would nag so much for a hanger. Now she wants to count all the hangers in the house . So loserrrrrrrrrrrzxsxxszssxzsxsxzsxzsxs!

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I can't take it.Everyday I wake up to her nagging . I seriously need to runaway. Omg , if only I could just blow her nagging away. *POOF* and its gone ! omggggggggg noisy . Okay I think I'm gonna go out now . I need to get out of my house . Bye bye !

All at once

2007-11-09T02:00:00.000+08:00

I miss the old you , you're totally different. Everything about you changed. Maybe its just me.Its like you're always shouting and getting angry for small things.Your vulgarities are getting out of hand!

Everything I do , its always wrong in your eyes . Sometimes I feel like a replacement. You don't treat me like how you used to. We ain't as close as how we used to be. I just hope everything will be fine soon , i just hope.

Maybe I've changed too , tell me , I'll improve , it might be my fault too .sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Cousin isn't doing too well too , hang on there brudder , you're strong (:

Gonna stop smoking, Patrick I promise and I'm sorry ): I didn't think you would care or bother, touched you are though.

okay enough with the emo post, today was super duper ultra fun . Didn't have that much fun in quite awhile cause these few days was mostly slacking and cards.

Meryl came to my house then we left for town with dana and best friend for now ( i forgot you're name). cabbed there . bffn was damn cunning , keep pulling my bra strap and I just knew you today ? what a nice first impression huh !? fareast then plaza then dana and bffn left . Met chun aik , sebas (ahgong), wilson and that sec 2 guy (dont know his name). played pool , only chun aik and sebas and I played. I won sebas !!!!! wooohooo ! i so thought i was gonna lose ! won chun aik too ! yes yes yes ! chun aik biggest loser = kiss treee !!!!

yay ! arshu winnnnnnnnnssssssssssssss !I'm super happy lah !!! its super hard to win sebas lah !

then walked to ps , settle stuff, yes settled , no more telling her to stop contacting me please,thankyouverymuch!

played the finger game ! it was super funny !!!!!!!!!!!! laughed like no tomorrow , seriously! the loser had to do forefit. damn funny !

wilson and chunaik were the losers . they had to fight in thr middle of carefour , where there was alot of people!

Wilson : WANT FIGHT AH !

Chunaik : Come lah ! scared what !

Chunaik + wilson : sissors paper stone action

damn funnyyyyy ! hard to explain , laughed my ass offf!

after that headed to the giraffe there , slack. chun aik , wilson and sec2 guy went in the water , sebas dropped chunnys sock into the water . damn funny ! then he was socks less. chun aik protected the other sock by hanging on his jeans. then when he walked , it fell and couldn't find it anymore ! suay ! he was meant to be socksless ! hahaha.

after that headed home with meryl . Sorry Sebas didn't take MRT with you . bus direct (:

pasta and brownies with icecream ! meryl must be happy lah , eat eat eat only ! thank you daddy!

Meryl's japanese warrior look - PRICELESS ! damnnnnnnm funnnnnnnny !

I'm laughing alot today ! laughing is the best medicine baby !

2007-11-05T22:48:00.000+08:00

hello malcolm , I'm posting so be happy okay aunty (:

Munchy donuts with Charmain , Ryan , Russell , Weixian and Liana. Then town , met William , Mark (?) and Dom and some guy. Walk walk , boring as hell , went for work ! woohoo at last , but no payday ):

Oh yes I have one appointment ! Like at last ! woohooo ! Bus home after work , like super boring day huh and super boring post . I'm sorry , nothing much happened .

I'm talking to Meryl right now , so as I said , I can't multi-task , so bye !

2007-11-04T16:48:00.000+08:00

okay I'm posting before Malcolm slaps/kills/stabs me ! alright so these few days has been fun but more of slacking than doing other stuff .

Friday , sushi day was a killer . Me and charmain had sushi buffet , so we were bored , so we played , we ordered everything on the menu after eating quite alot! Imagine after eating , eat again ! fuck ! was so full , vomitted .

After sushi , town with Meryl and Lim . walked around then went to Liana's house to borrow "I pronouce you Chuck and Larry". Home with Meryl . Watch it , talked to Meryl , picture , computer then she left (:

Yesterday , Town again with Meryl and Liana and Liana's friends, was kinda boring , cause Liana's friends mostly spoke malay , and my malay sucks so I didn't bother listening . Quite a long talk , then met ryan and I forgot who . Cabbed to katong . Meryl and Liana left , Ryan and I played pool ! wooohooo ! I won , Ryan I won ! he won 1 game ,I won 3 (:

Bus home alone , then had a freaking bad headache , urghhhhh , Meryl came over at like 9 plus . Some stupid , no logic movie which mad no sense.Everyone was just having sex with this women , dumb , seriously stupid.

about 1 or 2 am , we walked to 7/11 , tomyum noodles.

home , watched tv , computer and talked . heard some desperate person begging for meryl . It was super funny ! slept around 5 .

woke up , meryl was already awake using the computer . she left few hours ago! omg she looks super emo !black specs black shirt black skinnies and black shoes and black and white studded belt ! emoness !

okay , I think I'm gonna go for dinner soon , yay ! family bonding time baby ! long time haven't spent time with family , I miss family , seriously I do ):

I need to visit my cousin soon too ): I don't wanna be too late.

Tomorrow going out with Best and friends ! yay ! best I miss you already (:

Oh yes work tomorrow too ): yes yes , payday , like at last !

There you go Malcolm , I know you love me now, hahahaha. Have fun reading this oh so boring post (:

2007-10-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

I stayed at home the whole day today! everyone clap for arshu ! hahaha . omg I'm so bored though. gonna go down and watch television soon , but I shall post before more people nag at me (:

Listening to some emo song so duh feeling emo too ! Meryl don't scold me if you read this ):

There's school tomorrow , I guess I should be going , I need to get the grades I used to get . My EOY sucked like really really suckedddd ! Only got one A , yea you guessed it , maths . The rest of the subjects were either C5 or C6 . and fail another 2

arghhhhhhhhh ): tomorrow there is netball , I think I lost the schedule . hmm , should have but don't think I will be able to go , there is chemistry classes then there is malay too , so lets see . Shall ask someone later .

Charmain just called me , talking to her now (duh) . I've got work tomorrow too , how boring . Anyone wanna talk to me on the phone tomorrow between 6-9 , miss call me , I'll call you back ! hahaha. please please please. I'll be super boreddddd.

okay , I'm gonna go now , I can't multi task , I'm sorry . haha

anyway , goodluck to everyone taking O's tomorrow , good luck for your maths paper , I'm only wishing for maths cause I'm biased I like maths better than english. haha . But i shall be a kind soul , goodluck for both papers and every paper after . yay! luck luck luck !

2007-10-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

OhmyGod , I'm posting after likeeee 12485684545648548564 years ! okay maybe just three months (: alright , so I've done like alot of things in this 3 months (Like DUH) Omg I think I lost my touch in blogging.

Alright , I guess now all I can think about is how to hide my report book so I can enjoy the holidays . Next , work later in the evening ! can't forget about it cause Clara reminds me of it every 2 minutes . Lastly, How do I stop my Mum from nagging , everyday.

Hmm. Omg , I'm super bored ! I think nobody reads my blog , loner blog ): . I think its starting to become emotional cause Livejournal is stealing all its friends ! Everyone who come to this blog , come everyday alright !( I sound desperate) sorry , I've got no readers anymore , I think though i hope not.

Oh , my brother wants me to cook for him now , But i doubt I will , most probably , watch television downstairs while he cooks ! (:

take care people , oh yea. those who wanted to visit me at work , you can't . cause it is at the office . I don't think I'm going to school , so I'll just tell you here . (:

goodbye (:

2007-08-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

sigh.been sick the last two days. Fever went up to like 41degrees. I seriously thought I was going to die. Went to see Doctor Ho, he said I might have dengue but not sure yet. Sigh.He gave me some tables for my flu , body aches and fever.

Omg I hate staying at home, its so bloody boring. I rather go to school! Haven't gone to school for like a week already ? I think I've got alot to catch up in school I think, I mean homework.

arghhh, I shiver when I'm in the hot sun.Its scary. I've got nothing to post already. I'm feeling depressed.

No dengue please ? =(

I don't want to die

2007-08-11T13:22:00.000+08:00

Okay i've got alot of stuff to post about , I'm like so irritated with everything ! arghhhhhhh

lets seee . my week has been super hectic!been coming home late everyday and cabbing everyday . now i have $37 dollars left for the whole month . omg. someone help me please . but ernest owes me $12plus , terrence - $5 and mum $25 so I'll have $79 . Should last, but if i carry on like this i tell you i'll be broke by next week.

Soo . mm on tuesday , had National Day celebration in school . Went home after that then headed to town with charmain to meet vanese and liana. Watched Perfect Strangers , It was alright then went to play pool . Couldn't make it ! argh.I think interworld tables are better (:

After pool went to meet mum and bro at fort canning park . Went for Singfest ((: . It was awesome especially Sugar ray ! Unfortunately I missed Shaggy =( . Oh well , danced for like 4 hours which made my legs sore but it was great ! Worth it ! Reached home about 1+ ,2 .

WEDNESDAY
HAPYY NATIONAL DAY !

met charmain at her house, headed to bugis to meet juliana . Went to sungei road , to reach there we took 2 taxi's but actually we could have walked . Wasted my money =( anyway , bought a box bag , it's damn vintage! (: after that went back to bugis to eat then headed to fort canning for Singfest.

brought ju and charm in. Thanks Sano and ernest and the other guy (Idk his name) . Avenged sevenfold was great.

Then some stuff happened and my mood got really fucked up. Seriously, you don't even appreciate anything.I let you come in . Isnt that good enough?? Its not fair to the rest of the people who PAID for their tickets.And you kept asking me for tickets and bands. urgh. Oh and you didn't even say thank you.

When hinder came on , my mood was already disrupted , one of my favourite bands. sigh.Cabbed home . Fuck up mood . Fuck Fuck Fuck !

THURSDAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAMING

went to cine with shana and sherllie . Jerome have us wrong intructions . Idiot! haha. So had to walk from Cine to Cathay ! idiot ! Watched Rush hour 3 , the person sitting behind shana was so bloody irritating . he kept laughing super loudly and kept repeating the funny dialogs. like we cant hear like that ?

after the movie all of us went to Plaza Singapura to meet Daming and friends . Went to marina bay for steamboat . Fun (: then walked from shenton way to esplanade. tired. after that met shakyna for awhile then headed home.

reached home, Jansen kept nagging. I cannot tahan. Sigh. Somehow his words hurt me like hell. Argh. He's trying to change me but I am who I am . accept me for who I am . I told you I would stop , but that doesn't mean I have to leave my friends. Got too irritated that I couldn't help my tears.

Talked to charmain on the phone till she wanted to sleep. Stoned until 3 plus then went to sleep . just couldn't sleep . too many things on my mind.

Yesterday he smsed me again, urgh. He's like so off and on . I'm dying. Everything is back to square one!

I miss you but I don't miss us.

2007-07-29T22:15:00.000+08:00

I'm damn bored now, I wanna say everything out but I'm keeping in. I'm seriously fed up with everything.

Somehow I wished I didn't fight with my bro , though it wasn't my fault, I would have been talking to him the next day but because he spat at me , that made me feel lower than anything. Sometimes I feel like a burden to this family, I hate it.Its always my fault, cause he's the oldest and you all love him most.Farhan notices that too.

Somehow I don't trust anyone anymore,my best friend just blamed me for everything ? Who would meet someone at 5 in the morning ? Tell me ? You make me sound like I'm the bad one. You're the only one who actually understands me and knows me the most. When your father scolded me , you didn't even hesitate . I also do have feelings . You think the scolding from my mum isn't enough ?

Is this friendship ?

I wanna meet karina , she'll brighten my day (: or maybe shakyna ((: Someone bring joy to my life, I'm seriously living in darkness.

FUCK FUCK FUCK , omg I think I need to smoke. just got the urge. Ha bye

2007-07-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

FUCK! Everything is screwed! I can't take it anymore, My oral screwed,My mum doesn't trust me anymore, All the blame is to me , I mean all . You don't wanna get the scolding then you blame it on me.Urgh!

fuck. I'm not going out anymore, I'm gonna vow to myself, Seriously I don't feel like seeing anyone right now.Its hard to trust anyone now.

No more going out unless with school people, Gonna study already.

target for CA

ENGLISH - B3
MATHS - A1
AMATHS - A1
COMB HUMANS - B4
COMB SCIENCE - B3/B4
MALAY - B4
LIT - C5 (?)

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO .argh. HELP !

2007-07-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

I really can't take it, today was alright but I think I'm still dwelling in the past.

School was boring except Amaths. Sherllie was retarded. After amaths Sherllie and gang started taking pictures of me , like every second they took one. I was running away , I had to be modest you know.

Left school at about 1.50. No one was in class anyway. Mum picked me up then bathed and headed to kallng to meet Leo and friend.Sent them to kallang Kfc , stupid people didn't trust my directions. I proved you wrong in the end (: .

Leo left for work.Felt really sad.Kept thinking of the past , I really thought I had moved on , but I guess not.When we shook our hands goodbye,my heart sanked.Tears almost filled my eyes.Will I see you again after goodbye? Remember the last time when we parted our way back , we couldn't bear to leave but now just a handshake and goodbye.

Somehow I know you would never come back and I'm sure you're much happier without me.

I'm sorry I didn't go netball today,I'm really sorry, I know competition is coming but it's not everyday I get to see him.The last time I saw him was 4months ago.Just wished you understand. You seem angry or rather pissed with me.I'm sorry.

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

2007-07-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

WOO , I've got a sudden urge to post, no idea why.

lets post about my day first before this post gets more exciting !

Went to lim's house to show my face to her mum , if you're wondering why . here's how to story goes......

Long long ago , actually a few years ago , I used to always wear black , everything black like black freak ? I never actually wore anything bright at that time. I thought black was like so COOOLXSZSXZ! If you know me , you know me and charm are like BFFs , So we go to each others house often . One day , Charmain's mum told her that I look very dull cause i wear dull coloured clothes and charmain just had to bring down my self-esteem by telling me. All this while I thought I looked so nice.

So today when I went to her house guess what I wore , I wore striking red tappered pants and a bright yellow top ! I thought it matched quite well , I didn't look like a clown , just a little more attention from public , who wouldn't look at someone wearing bright yellow and red ? I know you would too ((:

ME : I came all the way here to show your mum I ain't dull anymore !
Charm : I think she loves you alot now !

okay so after lim's house , we went to tampines mall to meet Shakyna and Endika wanted to watch Harry Potter but decided to watch it some other time.

Anyway I heard Harry Potter was a let down . Awwww . I think Joshua Msn nick is cute,"Potter let me down".

Lim wanted to eat , so we headed to macs and ate there . Lim helped Shak pierce her lips . I did the most important part. I put in the stud ! YAY ME !

Shak's hollow pin was too thin so could fit inside , so had to take the hollow pin out first then put the stud but by the time the hole inside closed a little , so I poked the stud in (: now you see how important I am (:

Anyway , Since all of you are my lovely readers , I'm gonna tell you my deepest darkest secret (: I'm in love ! I can't stop looking at him ! but the sad part I can't have him . curious to know who is he ?

itssss .....

W910i . hahaha . IM SO GONNA BUY IT !!

If you love me to the extend you wanna buy it for me , you're welcome (: haha.

I think I'm freaking high! okay , thats about all , goodnight lovelys

LOVES;

2007-07-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'm kinda bored right now , oh i finally remembered to put Caiyun's song in my phone (: I don't need to runaway from her anymore . I'm gonna sleep real soon , getting tired by the minute .

School was boring today , slept more than half of maths lesson, Her voice is too soft and soothing , can't pay attention , don't blame me .

Oh malay was suprisingly fun, I actually only enjoyed Hafiz presentation , was kinda interesting. Who would ever think someone like Hafiz could do Silat and is he not bad actually.I'm impressed.

After school , parkway for lunch followed daidi with MANGFEN(thats how mrs R calles her) funny eh ? Charmain joined us later on , went around parkway then home .

Just came back from grandma's house.OMG my niece(?) ,I feel old; is so freaking cute ! she's gonna be a supermodel I tell you!Wait and see! BEAU-TI-FUL!

alright gonna crash real soon, goodbye lovelys (:

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew
Exactly what you would do
And don't say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
I never will
I never will
Never again

2007-07-08T02:02:00.000+08:00

Alright I'm posting for manfen (be honoured) , If I don't , she doesn't want to come to my blog anymore , evil right, everyone go scold her now!

alright , so today charmain tried to play hide and seek with me , she left the house at 3.54 and reached my house at 5++ .omg i feel like killing her , it takes maximum 20minutes to reach . So like every good friend , I started to panic . Oh and if you say just call her handphone lah. The most irritating part is she doesn't have one.

So once she reached , my family(mum and dad) started scolding her . so funny . but not in a harsh way . Damn funny. nvm i forgive you , since you brought doughnuts for me (((: woo they were nice .

Then we took bus 13 and headed to Junction 8, it is like so far. Me and Charmain were changing places so our butt wont be so hot.

Once we reached went to supermarket to buy 3bottles of water for Patrick then tried to find our way to his school , but couldn't find.So me and Lim took cab there and guess what it was so freaking near . The cab cost us like 4.70 (addition$2 because it was after 5)

anyway , when we reached Lim wanted to go toilet , so Patrick brought us to one of them . looked damn scary . like got some dark stairs down . Freaky!!

We were still early , so we couldn't go in the hall , me and charm were outside the hall sweating like mad ! damn hot !

Once we got in me and lim were like super happy , like never feel cold air before.

The concert started , First item was the dance! wahhh the boy so cute . dance damn nice. patrick solo was the third item . I think it was great (: you didn't screw up , really you didn't.

After all the solo's , there was the intrumental followed by the bands . I liked the band "decided". nice! the guy could sing.

Then some other non-competetive bands played they were nice too . Me and lim wanted to mosh but they guys moshing in front were like super rough , we wouldnt come out alive , I'm sure.

Then was the results , patrick didn't win =( , Nvm you tried your best . Don't worry alright . you didn't let anyone down . you did great (:

Oh yea ! and i hate their school it is like super rich . just for having a different colour chair they gave away a canon camera . LIKE WTF ??!

so irritated ! omg ! i want the cam !

anyway, after the show , it ended about 10.45 . while waiting for Patrick to get his stuff , me and charm were like laughing like mad. really look like drunk idiots . Patrick came to us without his stuff , we were like where are your stuff ? then he said his parents took them .

He went with us to bishan then wanted to take 13 together (: . but his mum wanted to pick him up . Lim bought cup noodles and ate them in the bus . damn retarded . took the last bus home . reached home at about 12.30am

patrick don't be sad alright , you sound super duper emo and weird . BOBO your head lah !

alright , think i'm going out with shak now or maybe not ? i'll post soon , come back soon alright ?

lets save the earth and wear green ! wooo . i love green (sorry random)

GOODBYE LOVELYS (:

2007-07-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

OMG! It has been like ages since I last posted.I'm sorry.I guess was too busy during the holidays and maybe didn't not have the mood to blog ?

So , school has started , as usual school - parkway - home - sleep . hopefully I'm gonna change my routine to school - home - study - sleep.

I guess I seriously need to mug, like starting from now, I always tell myself this , but I end up going out practically everyday ? It's so irritating , I can't study! someone help ? I think I have a problem.

went out with mum today , she was mad at me for reaching late and threatened me by saying "I'm going home now". I'm like half way there (thats what I told her) but I actually just boarded the bus.

Went to meet mum at Tangs, I bought sunglasses ! wooo! Mum and I liked one pair which was damn retro but the price was too nice too , $139?! for god sake , can singapore sell nice cheap stuff ?

Walked to Zara , bought a pair of 3quats, quite reasonable , $39.90 . but still isn't cheap .Sorry i've been on a serious budget. Me , Mita , Shak and Manfen have been so budget to the extend that we buy 60cents beehoon for recess and for the drink we bring our own waterbottle, imagine it's damn budget.

I'm listening to rascal flatts - feels like today

this song reminds me of today , I guess it's a special day for someone close to me (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO.

you're 16 already, now you can bring me to NC16 movies (: haha . I'm sorry I can't spend your special day with you.Distance is in our way. I'm sorry it ended up this way.I missed you too. anyway,Enjoy your day(:

"I did" isn't an illusion,But only a truth I lived.
"I do" isn't a choice,But only a need I bear.
"I will" isn't a promise,But only a belief I harbor.
Yet, I surely did,As surely I do . . .Love you.

LOVES;

2007-05-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

YO!

okay so rina is nagging on my tagboard , I guess this will be the last post till i come back . I'm leaving in like few hours time .Gonna miss lots of people.

Sad can't even say goodbye to him. I guess it shows how much i mean to you.You don't even bother. I waited till this day so i had an excuse to talk to you , false hope . sigh . I really miss you alot.

Tell me you had troubles sleeping , that you toss and turn from side to side , that is my face you've been seeing in your dreams and now .Tell me that you wake up crying and you're not sure exactly why .Tell me that something's missing in your life. Tell me that it's not just me.

fuck , I really can't take it . Why does this have to happen . Fuck , I love you , I just wished you did too .

you mean the world to me yet i mean nothing to you . sigh.

fuck fuck fuck . fuck love , fuck everything!

ohno , I need to stop posting before I get more vulgar..

mm . gonna miss lots of people. shall name my darlings (((:

LIM SI XIU CHARMAIN! , LEO , NICOLE , MANFEN , JULIANA , HAZEL , NAQUIYA , MELVIN , SHAKYNA .

I'm feeling freaking down . i shall stop naming people and leave . BYE . i love you people . love love . take care , drink more water people , singapore getting hotter . no good no good .. eat more fruits ! , sleep earlier .

P.S : charmain don't sleep too much , miss me alright (: . i'll see you soon . don't be a loner this holidays . haha . 2 smses per day . only shortform and no spaces . YEAH ! goodbye lovely . love you !

P.S : manfen don't think too much lah . I will miss my charmain more . haha! sleep more , you need to be more beautiful or else i dont want you already . haha . dont flirt with others okay . must look at my pic every minute. take care love, LAOGONG , WO AI NI(:

P.S : nicole , yo! i'll see you when i get back , I won't forget the $4 you owe me. hehe . I wanna see you at the airport . im sure you know what time to come since you read the itenary already (: mahjong soon alright ? i miss the sound of tiles ! stop hating people too! acceptance (:

thats all i guess .

SHARE THE LOVE (:

2007-05-14T11:51:00.000+08:00

wow, it's the 14th already , as I said in the last post . 18 days will pass real soon , yeah . tomorrow is the last day already =). just one more , one more ! weee.

france here I come . wooohoo. Life's great right now . Everything I had lost have all come back . God i thank you for everything . The four of us are back in action =)) never thought our friendship would stay this strong but we proved ourself wrong .

And boy , I don't know if you're gonna leave again . It's really hard to trust you now . Everything I believed was a lie or uncertain.But boy, you really made my day , I haven't frowned since I saw your text.

maybe it's better if we still stay as friends until I can trust you again. I'm sorry but remember I never once did stop loving you .

nothing last forever though we want it to, A road ahead holds differents dreams for me and you .
Sometimes goodbye only hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny . Sometimes goodbye is the only way for you and me . Though it's the hardest thing to say, I miss your love in everyway . So say goodbye but don't you cry cause true love never dies.

will it be us or just me and you ?

LOVES;

2007-04-27T17:35:00.000+08:00

sigh,

the first paper is over , still got many more .
18 more days =) it will pass real soon . now it's fine to study study study . I think I'm gonna mia like how I do everyday exam time =) . Dont worry , you would see me soon . haha . Need to get maybe 3As ? maybe just to show myself and prove myself , his absence does not affect me =) .

I've got France and Thailand to look forward too . so thats good =) weeeee .

I'm wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason, life for me to care
Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around

LOVES;

2007-04-25T22:41:00.000+08:00

If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday

If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will

2007-04-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

sigh. life's been rough lately , thats kind of the main reason i've not been posting besides being lazy. I've been confused about what to do , still kinda messed up right now but have to put that aside and start mugging MYE'S. I think I'm so gonna screw up History and Social Studies not forgetting Physics which I haven't got a clue about.

Been really sad these few days , no one there to cheep me up :( Just wished he wasn't so busy with his work or could just find some time , a few minutes everyday , I don't think I'm asking for much. Oh well ,I guess I'll just wait till your I.T.C or N levels end.

I've just started my Amaths homework , I'm forgetting everything! argh! One question , one page .. I'm gonna die. Still having a fever too . I think my life sucks !

Why did you have to leave now , when i need you the most. WHY! just hope everything would be like the past. I love you my boy.

Leo ng xin wei ... I love you

2007-04-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

yo !

i've been yo-ing alot with manfen these few days . It's like an addiction . haha . today school was kinda fun cause there was practically no lessons =D weeee .

after school went to orchard with manfen laogong worxxzxzxsxs~ . watched freedom writers .nice movie about racism and poverty , basically , life . mm . after that rush rush rush back to school for speech day .

ended late , was boring though .. manfen please dont be an asshole and Sabo me again next year ! lim came to fetch me from school , awww how sweeet . haha . played with my 'brother farhan' . funny .

off to bugis with lim . pei pei is not working there anymore . haha . sad . topshop , dorothy perkins . then home . just reached home not long ago . im utterly tired . oh well

LAST BUT NOT LEAST .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUMITA!! ,

this is why i dont take art =D
sigh, boy i guess this is gonna end real soon , i can sense it but i really hope we can go through this together . i love you , but i dont think you feel the same way anymore =( . boy, dont give up . everything will pass real soon . there's always sunshine after the rain .

LOVES;

2007-03-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

yay . im back from OBS ! weeee .

it was fun but tiring at the same time . most tiring was kayaking . which mad most of us black . haha . expect me and shakyna who were so kiasu we put tons of sun block lotion on so we wouldnt turn even more darker . haha . it helped but i still got a little tan =( espcially my hands and face =( . oh well .

my group , hillary really worked together and i guess we suffered together during the thunderstorm when our tents were flooded and falling . but we didnt run alone but wait for everyone . thats what i call teamwork =D

i guess that last day felt sad but happy at the same time . my lovely handphone , friends and boy is all alone , without me . haha . the story Alex (group intructor) told us about the pencil really touched us . haha .

when we reached ponggol jetty he treated us to icecream . weee .thanks . so long didnt have any nice food .

kinda dulan on the bus with someone who only thinks of herself . i still dont understand why she goes to church when she is so bad hearted . maybe a hypocrite ?

so i didnt let her spoil my mood . mummy fetched me home . weee . so long havent seen her . i love you mummy . haha . looked at my handphone then called leo . he didnt have work today .

went out with him . so impromto . haha . but oh well i miss him . straight away got ready then went to vivo to meet him . we watch mr bean's holiday . really funny. its nice . thanks for the massage boy , i really needed it . i love you !

after the movie , leo had to settle some problem so he sent me to the bus stop then left. slept in the bus and some girl was sleeping on me too . haha . miss my bus stop . haha . too tired . stopped at eastwood there then took taxi home .

home at 12 plus ? oh my i need rest rest rest . tomorrow got to go chiong homework . but im too tiredd !! arghhh .

boy, i don't know what to believe but i trust you . i do . please don't break this trust again . i love you !

LOVES;

2007-03-11T14:12:00.000+08:00

long time since i've posted .

my computer is fixed now . so thats good . results slip returned on friday . results sucked . could have done better for english and Amaths . but im satisfied for my maths and sciences ..

march holidays are here . kinda busy everyday . need to find time to study . i hate studying =( except for maths . i feel like a maths geek ! oh well .

going to yumita's house later . I'm sure it would be fun (;

mm . tomorrow going to meet Leo . YAY.

I need to pass something to patrick though . but i doubt he'll reply . weiyun , could you use your fucking brain . i just wanna pass patrick something not jio him ! freak! patrick taste is getting worse , how could he choose a mustached girl. yucks . have you ever heard of threading ?

ohwell . don't really for both of you . ha. don't come back to me when you need help cause i won't be there anymore . i know i promised you i would but after she came into your life everything changed . so forget it . the more i think about you , the more i hate you !

at least i can see leo tomorrow .

i love you ((:

LOVES;

2007-02-25T15:15:00.000+08:00

yay . life's getting better . at last ! haha

but still i dread to see him everyday ! fuck off please ?
don't you fucking dare touch me again . arghhhhhh . still can stand him . but yet i don't bear to do anything ? arghhhh .

mm..all i need to do now is study . need to study physics today . i dont understand a thing . who can help me in physics ? i hate it ! chem test coming soon too . shall revise later at night .oh shit i forgot i got emaths and amaths test too . ohno .

4 test in 2 days . ohmy . i shall start revising after this post ..

urm .yesterday mahjong with nicole and charm . weeee . fun fun . but i was losing like shit . no luck at all . damn hard to get the tai . sigh . shall play again soon ((: charm was high and retarded yesterday. haha. i think she was trying to reduce me , but she was too tired that she fell asleep . waha .

boy,thanks for being there. love ya.

i shall go study now . good bye .

yay. i can see you soon !

LOVES;

2007-02-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

sighhhh .

who got spare phone ?! willing to lend a friend of mine ?

and who is willing to donate money to a someone i know who is not exactally fotunate . any amount would do . he doesnt know im doing this for him . if this doesnt work out i'll just save up to help him myself (: please help . sigh .

would it be out of line if i said i missed you ?

LOVES;

2007-02-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

sigh. why must life get more and more complicated .

boy, whats the truth . i really dont know what to do . sigh . i know its hard to commit again . but why hurt yourself being like this . i know you have your problems but i'll try my best to make you happy .

it hurts seeing you like this . i care bear to see you drunk . it hurts badly see you so sad and i feel so hopeless not being there . why cant i care for you . you care for me so much .. thats the least i can do .

sigh. i dont wanna to lose you . i know , a friend is all i will ever be to you . just cant accept it i guess

this happened to me once , i lost him . i really dont wanna lose you . dont worry . everything will be fine . i have financial problems too but i have to live with it . boy..i know you are busy with your work but concentrate on your studies too .

money cant buy the most precious things in this world . boy . you are precious to me .. dont be sad . im not leaving . i wont . i promise . i promise not to hurt you . dont be scared anymore .

you cant always hide from reality but instead face it . dont worry . everything will be alright . hope everything will be fine soon .

your hp's spoilt now . cant even talk or text you to know how you're feeling . just hope you take care . im not sure if we will talk after today . i dont know whats happening now .

i love you , i really do . i told you i'll wait . 2 years for you its worth it . maybe i'll regret or you will be happy loving someone else then but at least i tried .just hope you are happy .dont drink and smoke too much .take care..

LOVES;

2007-02-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

the amount you hurt me . i dont think you have the right to be called my brother . fuck off for all i care . good i cant see your fucking face at home now . thank god you left .

treating me like crap . who do you think i am . if you cant control your anger dont vent it on me you dumb ass . all i did was say it was expensive .

i never wanted your money . if you cant understand english then its your bloody problem . ha . you're not my family . uncivilised freak . i have never seen a guy lift up a finger on a girl ..

to make me bleed and have stiches once is enough . what more do you want . kill me for god sake . ha . you left and there's a party downstairs . haha . nobody cares you're gone . haha . what a loser . no life ! haha . how much more pathetic can one get .

my life is getting better by minute witthout you in my life, family . bye bitch or should i say it .

and boy don't be stupid to waste your energy beating him up . its not worth it . dont hurt yourself for no reason . no more drinking boy! love you.

i dont want to wait 2 years ! oh boy . faster break your promise so i can have you !

sorry for not posting . computer is spoilt . but i'll be online more since it has left . yeah ! hurray ! hope it doesnt come back . it doesnt deserve . my promise to it , you will never gain my respect , ever !

leo ! stop drinking ! arghh ! oh no . im worried! =((

LOVES;

2007-02-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

suppose to go with my brother and mum to parkway to buy some stuff for my bro . but bro took so long to get ready. so i went to charm's house instead ..

weee . many many pictures ! weeeee . we were crapping so much . so long since i had so much fun . haha . and i love her yummy yummy chocolate chip cookies ! yum yum!

here are some of the pics we took (:

haha . went to parkway then home .

after that nicole called me to go boonkeng there . so went to boonkeng . must change 3 mrt lah . so mafan . met parveen first . parveen's phone dropped from 9th story ? so scary lah . haha .

nicole came slacked with few people . dont know who . haha . took pictures too . haha .

after that wanted to meet patrick but he couldnt come down . oh well . then went to play ground . jiehua suddenly sms me few stuff . dont know if its true . sigh .

tell me the truth , dont leave me hanging here . I guess im not good enough for you . Im sorry . just wished i could be that lucky girl . boy. tell me the truth , is this love ?

home with nicole . cheer up girl . everything will be fine yeah ! mm. talked to him then went to sleep . sigh . i really dont know what to do . you keep giving me false hopes . boy. i love you but i dont know where this is heading .

woke up . brother come to nicole house to give tuition . i was maria making for then food and drinks . went home with bro after tuition . motorcycle !

LOVES;

2007-02-09T20:58:00.000+08:00

manfen didnt come school =( . i miss my ahma ! haha

school was boring had 3 test . haha . but mrs remidious was too happy that she didnt want to carry out the lesson . missed 3/4 of ms chua's lesson but mr tan still came in to relief us , ms chua prepared a suprised test .

didnt go for netball . went home changed then headed to hospital . yay . my cousin looks alright . watched oliver twist with him . yay ! i think my cousin's cute . cant help but think how different life would be without him . just care bear to see him like this .

at about 6 plus went to meet charmain at clementi then headed to orchard ! got 2 blouses ! yay !

home at 11 .

LOVES;

2007-02-08T20:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINNING AND PATRICK :DDD

2007-02-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

weee . im posting for my ahma ! haha . later she nag nag

mm . been really tired this whole week . everyday netball its crazy ! my mum wants to complain . she is irritating . but really dont have much time for studying anymore . everyday when i come home , im too tired to do anything .

yesterday after netball match went home . while watching tv i slept . was too tired ! haha . woke up was so bored . nobody was home to entertain me . asked charm out eventhough body was aching . boredem was killing me . haha .

orchard to meet her and xinyi (: yay. bought shoes ! cheap and nice . YEAH ! pasta mania then home . weeeee . didnt do much .

hope my cousin's fine . friends pray for him okay ? thank you . loves

oh boy , I miss your voice !

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the world's a stage
And each must play a part.
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know.
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you.
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you.
Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you won't come back to me
Then make them bring the curtain down

LOVES;

2007-01-27T15:01:00.000+08:00

YAY . im happy happy !

haha . yesterday . school was draggy somehow . but I skipped 3 lessons . 1 period of lit and 2 periods of mother tongue . so fun lah ! yay . i hate MT . weee . thanks to health check up ! weehee . wasted about a period in the classroom so we didnt have to go malay class .

went up to malay class at 10.40 (went up just to show our face) 10.45 bell rings . then recess ! haha . so fun fun . but walking up and down forth story is tiring .

english after recess . acted as the nerd . i think daming took my photo carrying hanisah's haversack super high . looked so toot ! ohmy .

after english kelvin's tan chemistry make up lesson . so boring lah . i slept . too tired you know . and his lesson never has anything interesting . haha . played with manfen [ mi mi mi mi mi fa so mi fa fa fa so fa mi re do mi mi mi mi fa so me fa mi fa mi re mi fa do do do ] . haha . we got scolded for making noise . funny funny .

after school went to 24 hour to eat rojak ? haha . manfen's wallet fell into the curry . funny . lol . rojok too much gave to khairul . haha . then ian , hazwan , khairul , jeremy , weekiang , jerome , wenn young and yan zhuan came .

talk talk then took bus to netball court . played against gmss . knew we would lose . but no harm in trying though . first quater score was 19-0 . its like OMG ! 2nd quater i played . wah i go in i already kena push . whistle havent even blow . stupid women not happy ah ! so pain lah . even minute kena 5 times imagine 10 minute ! 50 times ! can die you know . hand pain ! luckily it started raining so the game was timed .

it was pouring so the match got cancelled ! yeah baby ! fun fun . went to kcf with manfen , wenn young , ian , jerome and hazwan . ! haha . funny funny . laugh laugh laugh . forgot what hazwan said then i laughed lot . haha met juliana there she was waiting for melissa . so she was a loner . haha . sad sad

mum picked me up from kcf off to jenny's to cut hair . haha . my hair kinda sucks now . no more long fringe i miss it ! oh my . i'll keep it till december again ! haha . after jenny got dressed then met thierry awhile . walk walk bought green tea . huge bottle . haha .

went to lim's house to take my bag . after that met Leo at st pats bus stop ! YAY. walk walk to east coast there . fun fun . walk walk . he is another ahma . no car dont let me cross road . must wait for GREEN light . stupid ! his friend got caught for jaywalking when there was no car ? haha . funny .

sat at some place . scary scary . lucky got him . if i was alone i'd just die i tell you . mm . stayed with him till 2 plus . weeeee . i love his company .

took some pics . weee . stole some of his pics . not really steal but he bluetooth it to me . weeeheee . i was so tired . walked so much . haha . he became my bed . haha . so nice ! but too much muscles . like iron . =(

took cab home . scared the hinge was lock then cannot go in . he sent me home . yay . stupid boy never take same cab . he made sure i went in and then he walked to the main road to take another cab home . so sweet . i love you !

boy thanks for the present too !

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody's made me feel this way before;
You're everything I wanted and more.

To speak or not to; where to begin.
Your great dilemmas I'm finding myself in.
For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale's got to end.

LOVES;

2007-01-23T19:54:00.000+08:00

yay ! im finally 15 (:

now i'm 365 days away till my next birthday cake !

school as usual . i feel so stupid not knowing what was happening . only started getting suspicious during recess . haha . everyone just wanted me to sit then everyone buy for me stuff . haha . maybe its my birthday then they act kind .

I was sitting down with yumita helping her do some thing for her art then suddenly Ian comes over and sits in front of me . kinda weird lah . suddenly he come . then slowly more people started gathering around me .

i still abit blur . haha . then i turn around , i hear seowling singing happy birthday song and manfen carrying the cake ! haha . yay ! was really nice . really touched ! i miss 2EC !

though made me paiseh , but still i love you guys !

thanks for the card and present ! love love love !yay!

after school parkway with manfen . yay . thanks for accompanying me . sad seowling ,yumita and rachel couldnt make it . thanks huiyan for the present too !

home at 6 plus . dad isnt home =( just wished he was home to celebrate . sigh . oh well . i guess i will see him soon .

yay . now i'll thank everyone who sent me smses and wished me !

especially wanna thank : last year 2EC . love you guys . thanks Xinyi for the drawing of mangosteen cake , Leo(: for the birthday song =D and Rowena for the birthday hug ! yay !

LOVES;

2007-01-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

today .. had netball match .

lost again =( . major difference in the scores . oh well . sore throat is killing me . mum just made me drink some disgusting drink . i rather drink my vomit then drink that . oh my . it sucks . but had to drink . yuck yuck yuck . i think i need to go doctor soon . anyone wanna bring me ?

sigh . why must you fight =( why ! why hurt yourself ! urgh . you know i don't like you to fight yet you still can tell me. urgh . just feel like giving up . sigh . im worried worried worrried !!!

tomorrow will be a better day i hope ? hope i'll be feeling better tomorrow .

i love you (:

LOVES;

2007-01-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

sigh ..

just wish you cared , just wish you would bothered . sigh . i guess im not as lucky as others .

treasure your parents =(

LOVES;

2007-01-20T02:05:00.000+08:00

i'm bored bored bored.

weeeeeeeeeeeee. nothing to do. lost the match today . oh well . cheer up ok (:

coke + mentos = scary .

haha . dont try it . looks scary .

lalala. i dont know what to write . someone give me ideas !

aiya .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARMAINE (:

2007-01-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

okay i havent posted for like ages . not really . just a week (: before ahmas and ahgongs start nagging , i shall post for them (:

school has started(duh) , kinda sucks . can't talk on the phone till morning anymore =( . and studying . i dont mind studying actually . haha . you may think im weird . but somehow it keeps me occupied and i dont spend so much money now compared to the holidays .

only things why i dread going to school is the distance . i hate travelling time . so boring . at least i could do something productive with that time . sigh .

shit lah . i feel so lost now . where are you ? i miss you :(

oh . and charmain read a story book . how amazing is that . and not only 10 or 20 pages . but 87 pages in a day! haha . i dont know if she is faking . but she asked me to post this . good job lim (:

okay . i shall go crash now . its 12.30 already =( have to pack my bag first . oh tomorrow p.e =( mr fong . oh my . i want mr lim . oh well .

rest rest rest boy!. i love you (;

LOVES;

2007-01-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

ITS A NEW YEAR ! YEAH ! I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS DAY !

firstly to start afresh , secondly my birthday is getting nearer ! few days away! yeah !

okay . this year new years was great (: had lots of fun . but i guess it was too crowded at esplanade . breathing was difficult ! haha . okay . im lazy to post what happened . haha . anyway . HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE .

lets see . now new year resolution .

lets see my last year new years resolution . no i forgot already but i still have my blog post

LAST YEARS RESOLUTION .

- study hard this year .
- nv to make u* sad .
- family to patch up .
- every1 to lead a happi life (:

OKAY . sorry for the retarded typing . lucky it was not kawaii . haha

so lets see . i did study hard [tick] never to make maoqiang sad ? i shall nt sensor the name . oh well it didnt work out . but i tried not to make you sad ? haha . [half tick] family to patch up ? oh well its still the same [cross] everyone to lead a happy life . i guess this will never be certain but i'll still hope for that (: [i dont know what is this ]

so this years resolution .

- STUDYYYYY !
- BE HAPPY !
- BE A GOOD GIRL :D
- FRIENDS TO BE HAPPY
- FRIENDS TO STAY WITH THEIR LOVERS (:
- BOY TO STUDY AND BE HAPPY AND NO MORE FIGHTS !!!
- FAMILY LOVE <3>
- NO MORE HATRED (:
- GO TO AUSTRALIA WITH NICOLE AND JULIANA (:
- NOT TO BE LATE FOR SCHOOL (impossible but i'll try)

okay thats all . i shall try to acomplish everything . i'll try . OKAY . i have to sleep soon . okay . everyone , have fun in school tomorrow . study hard! loves ! yay . i get to see many people tomorrow . but waking up is the killer . oh well . i shall sleep soon in order to wake up (:

ONCE AGAIN .

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

LOVES;

2006-12-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

its new years eve now . need to start afresh . too many mistakes . just hope god will forgive me .

argh . he is sleeping now . so sian . i guess im going to sleep soon before i get scold for not calling =( . haha . i will call you okay . stop suaning me . haha . okay . i guess i'll sleep now . tmr we be fun right ? haha . okay .

boy i won't runaway (: , love you !

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so want to give you
It’s only a heartbeat away

When I need love
I hold out my hands
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day
Miles & miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can’t take the place of your smile
But you know I won’t be travellin’ forever
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so want to give you babe
It’s only a heartbeat away
It’s not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that’s a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won’t be travellin’ a life time
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do…
Oh I need you….

LOVES;

2006-12-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

worst christmas . argh fuck this .

thanks guys for the presents (: love you all .

fuck i regretted .
my hp
my hands bleeding
hangover
i just feel like vomit
argh . drunk and wasted . help me please =( .

and that fucking asshole who stole my handphone , you watch out . arghh shit .

im sorry boy . mm . i wont drink anymore . please dont drink too . i dont want you to get hurt , please . i couldn't bear hearing you vomitting on the phone without me being there by your side . im sorry . dont fight already . i miss you . i dont think i can talk to you so soon . until i get my line back .

anyway . people wanna contact me call my house(ask me on msn) or my bro number . 97930346 . but state your name first please . thank you .

LOVES;

2006-12-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

suppose to go karina's house today but as usual it always gets cancelled it the end . why can't people be reliable . argh. its so irritating . (ju im not blaming you , its general)

you always said friends come first , but i dont think you mean what you say , do you ? if i asked you out and he/she asked you the next minute , i can garantee you , you would go with him/her. its irritating how you always want things to go your way .

back to my day , was boring . bro was out so didnt do much painting . drive with mummy . was funny . haha .

what happened to our promise ? i always thought we would stick by each other through thick and thin ? i guess it was all empty promises .

LOVES;

2006-12-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

it has been raining and raining . my room's flooded . not exactly flooded but its leaking like crazy . grr .and me and my brother are painting my room . wrong time to leak lah . cant even paint . so irritating . how i wish , rain rain come again another day ? maybe next year ?

so all my furniture is out lah . my bed is in my mum's room and the rest is outside . so my computer is outside my room . i look like a begger with no house then i carry my furniture whereever i go !

i think the painting will take 1 week including shiftin all the furniture back . but that my brother will do , don't need to worry . hope my room will turn out nice , though its not that bad now even though we are barely even halfway done .

i miss going out . i hope my room is done faster so i can go out ! YAY ! hehe . my room is filled with one year supply of newspaper . so imagine . haha .

i just wished i could help you =(

LOVES;

2006-12-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

boy .
I know you didn't mean to lie to me . I forgive you . I can't promise you to smile . Im sorry . but don't be sad please , don't cry . Seeing you like this hurts me too. We'll go through this together, okay? I still trust you , I still believe in you.

everything will be like before right ?

i ~~love~~ you

Who's out there
Who's gonna save us
Before we all fall through the cracks in the pavement

LOVES;

2006-12-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

IM BOREDDD NOW.

i slept alot today ! haha . i woke up at like 3 plus 4 . haha . i feel so pig . haha . and i dreamt that i went down and watched tv with my bro and he was eating as usual . so i didnt know it was a dream . so i didnt wake up . hahaha .

but i slept at six plus . haha . xinyi: dont scold me (:

i dont have green nails anymore . hehe .

im soo bored bored boreddd .

yay . GAYBOY IS ONLINE NOW .. hoho .

i think the name gayboy reminds me as a superhero ((: gayboy is cute (:

okay . dont think im going to sleep early today . too much sleep . but i need to be at bugis at 1 . ohnoo . so early lah . hope i can get up . morning call anyone ??

i'll go find something to do now . anyone free? call me . im dying of boredem . =(

LOVES;

2006-12-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

arghhh . i woke up freaking early today ! at like 8 plus . but obviously i slept again (: heee . slept till 11 . waiting for lim's call . i thought she was still sleeping . so i didnt bother to get ready first . then suddenly at 12 plus she called me , she was ready and i hadnt even bathed yet ? haha .

parkway . sorry i was late . i think you were too early . haha . walked around . shopping for charmain that is . haha . then met juliana and melissa at mph . haha . so coincidence . melissa is mute lah and PAIKA (:

headed to marina with lim . then bought for my bro some stuff . then charm went to meet jiayu . didnt do much there . kinda boring actually .. took mrt home . bro dont want to pick me up =( yay . now my ezlink got money ! hehe .

tanah merah . waited for bus so long . met rachel tay at the bus stop . its like ages since i saw her ? hehe . saw sharmaine too . but she was in the bus . then got on the bus i saw liang . haha . i was thinking why he look so familar .

sad lah he didnt drive his car or else he will tompang me =( haha . he was heading to meet my bro . haha . my bro didnt want to pick him up . haha . selfish bugger . so had company in the bus too . yay .

is this love for real ?

LOVES;

2006-12-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

okay . so woke up by mum's nagging again . this time she wasnt nagging at me but my brother . 11am nag nag nag. so irritating lah . for like 20 minutes she was persistantly nagging . she kept asking my brother to get out of the house and not come back .

i think parents are stupid . supposing my brother really got out of the house and i doesnt come back .she would be up whole night wanting him to come back . which doesnt make any sense actually .

oh yea . i wasnt actually there .but i was eve dropping on the situation . so i couldnt take it anymore , i went over to my brother's room . shouted at my mum . if he went , don't you dare ask him to come back . so she kept quite. i know her too well . and at last the nagging stopped (: thanks to yours truly (: hehe

i slept at 4 or 5 last night so i had to sleep more . haha . so i went back to sleep at 2 . hehe . woke up . watched tv with haider . haha . dragon ball . haha .

dinner then driving with family . weeeheee. so my brother practiced driving and parking . this time it was better . not bad actually . his parking improved . i tried driving too . so scary lah . i think i made everyone's heart beat . haha . farhan also tried . he was better than me . haha . i cant turn . haha . scaryyyy ! but i want to try again ! YAY!

patrick bought me stuff from japan ! YAY ! and ian didnt . asshole !

its really good hear your voice saying my name , it sounds so sweet .

LOVES;

2006-12-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

so ronin concert at karina's place .

don't think it went well . at least i expected it to be better . so after karina's place then went to marina square with charm , melanie and junita (: macs for dinner . i dont like macs actually . lol .

visit them work awhile . ralvin and nicki came . long time no see ? haha . taiti with mel and jun outside marina (: yay . fun fun . i won .yippeeeeee . then perfume at sasa . sorry sasa people i think all your testers need to be replaced (:

home at 8 plus . bought calamanci sorbet . can taste the lime seeds lah . tsk . disgusting lah . haha . sorry mel and jub you are both sticky sticky . though i don't know what i did . im sorry .

36 them 43 home . haha .

wow .now both my brothers have friend's over . there are like guy and guy everywhere ! urgh . so irritating lah . want to watch tv also cannot . grr . feel like siaming (?) them . hehe .

okay . so i think i need to give my fathers cake menu .

mm . i'll just name the nice ones okay ?

some chocolate pudding . it taste like heaven . nice !
stawberry tarts ! my favourite
chocolate cake .
marble cake
fruit cake . got alcohol . i like !
orange cake
suji cake
almond cherry cake
chocolate brownies . dads speciallity (:

interested anyone ?

okay . there are many more. but im lazy to name . too many to remember (; sorry

LOVES;

2006-12-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

why can't everything be like the past ? why can't my mum just appreciate what my father has done for her ? why can't she care for him? why must all she think about envolve money ? why why why !!!

arghhhhhhh . i don't like seeing my dad like this . i hate seeing him sad . he is always happy and willing to do everything . i just wished i could help =( . but how . i can't even work to support anyone . i just wish my mum would love him , like he does .

please don't insult him anymore . he has never insulted you . but look at how you do . people do have feelings . he made a mistake , stop blaming him every single day . but look at you , mum , are you even true to dad ? ha. hard to answer ?

daddy one day . one day , everything will be fine . i promise . i love you

no more fights and quarrels please ? i can't take it anymore . i just feel like giving up .

LOVES;

2006-12-09T04:24:00.000+08:00

YAY !shoppingggggg ((:

mum woke me up by sitting on me . so heavy lah . she think she very light hah ! so got dressed and went to orchard ((: yay . shopping . long time no shopping . haha . so i spend like $162 ? so next month no pocket money . sad huh ?

clothes also must buy myself =( grrr . so bought a green and brown top ((: hehe . bought for my brother black longsleves shirt . haha . nice ((: so im like totally broke now . i just have some for my basic needs . thats all =( .

so . i'll just pray money drop from the sky or money starts to grow on trees ((:

anyway , anyone want to order cakes ? please please please (: call me or tell me on msn . if you dont have either then i guess add me on msn

arshu_23@hotmail.com

YAY . I'LL LOVE YOU IF YOU ORDER ((: be kind lah !

oh yea. so get back to my day . went to grandma's house after that . all my cousins ar overseas studying lah or in singapore studying(including my brother) . no more nice cousins . only left hanna and sofia =( nvm the are nice too .

arghhh . so my mum told me my uncle got a new car . and like wth lah . i fucking hate my uncle lah . he sucks like hell . urghhhhhh . bloody bastard . he tells my family the company got no money but instead he takes everything. bloody hell . my family is like stuggling like hell ? my father is bankrupt and he can take company's money and buy a new car . wtf lah . oh if you're wondering . its a family business . everything SHOULD be share equally ! but my fucking uncle takes care of the finance . arghh. shit him man .

i would marry the person who kills him . haha . he is a bloody bastard . he is trying to take over my house ? wtf lah . you're own family also want to take money from us . arghhhhh . i just wish i can finish my studies soon so i can get a new job so fight with his fucking loser kids . who just action . ha . hari raya you wear shorts and tshirt ? you think what . you angmoh arh ! stupid ! use your brain lah . then the children are some stuck up spoil bratts. who will go . oh mummy oh daddy . argh. fuck them man . someor action got american excent .

my cousin from america suan her say , i've lived in america since 7 and i dont even speak like her . what a poser . haha . omg . someone kill my uncle and maybe his whole family . i tell you i wont even shed a tear . maybe tears of joy ? or tears of sympathy ! yeah ! fuck him and his family . let them burn in hell ! yeah ! rot in hell biatch !

OKAY . sorry for the vulgar post . but it felt good . now dont you all wanna gang up to kill him and his family ? yeah , i hate him to the core ! dont you ?

LOVES ;

2006-12-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

yay . karina house (((((:

went to her house at about 3plus . played bluff/bullshit(karina's vulgar way of saying it) then taiti with karina and alicia ((: YAY . then got bored of it . so we decided to play twister (((: yay ! I LIKE !

played with karina , alicia , cat , korrey and karina's mum . it was damn funny i tell you . espcially karina's mum . she was leaning of everyone till they fell haha . korrey took some embarassing photos of everyone . haha .

at 6 went to parkway with karina , alicia and cat . then met nicole . karina bought her stuff . then we ate dinner at kfc . went to some other place of that at telok kurau lorong n . then walked to karina's house . then took bus home (:

twister with mum and haider . haha . its damn funny . my bro sucks at it lah . he cant twist for nuts ? what a failure . hoho .

i love you (:

LOVES;

2006-12-06T01:29:00.000+08:00

im tireddddd now .

slept late last night , smsing , i smsed like for 2 hours continuously . luckily only smsing one person or my bill's gonna burst . slept at 4 plus . sorry leo didnt reply you . fell asleep . morning woke up . so early lah . but mum was like nagging and nagging .

wake leo up . stupid pig . sleep so much ! haha . talked to him awhile then he went chalet (: . maybe he can see peilin there ?

watched dvd ,prime with mum and haider . haider is irritating lah . talk to loud . tsk tsk ! . 5 plus got ready went to tanah merah to meet charm . wait for 30 minutes for her ! so long lah . tsk ! went to bugis . i think bugis is damn boring lah . i think bugis people are damn rude lah (no offence to my friends) everybody was like giving a fucked up attitude .haha . oh well . i don't go bugis often so who cares . i think more and more ahlians wannabee's are going there ? (oh no don't bash me up)

so off to teenage cafe . i want my tuna salad lah =( noo moreeeee ! boohoo . that makes me hate bugis more lah . grrr . so jiayu came to meet us . sotong lah she . haha . bought chicken from downstairs . haha .

then walked around looking for bags . i still think i wanna go malaysia to get my bag so not many will have the same one as me . anyone wanna go malaysia shopping with me ? or maybe i'll just go with my mum (:

walked to 48 bus stop . so scary . so many banglas . im scared =(

i glad you still remember me ,
or least thought of me ,
you may not be the best boyfriend
but you are certainly a great friend (:

but , the message just brought me to the past memories
maybe i just can't accept the fact that you've moved on

enjoy your holiday (: take care

you seem so much happier with me , or maybe thats just the way i want it to be

LOVES;

2006-12-05T00:28:00.000+08:00

fun day ((:

out with melanie today (: . haven't gone out with her for a long time ((: . went to marina square . was suppose to go vivocity but had second thoughts as it was too far . haha . soo . off to marina (: shopppinngggg ! (but didnt buy anything) , visit lim and amelia . then shopppinngggg again (: both eyed on some clothes . i dont think i can spend my money or else i wont have any money for the rest of the month . but we didnt shop much . next time k mel?

sooo . off to suntec (: guess what we ate ? hehe .

SUSHI ! YUM YUM . haha .

unagi ! SUSHI = LOVE (:

our mission for buffet : 30 coloured plates . altogether

MISSION FAILED -

haha . only manage 20 plates=(

such failures =(

i'll try again next time . dont eat the night before . anyone care to join ??

after suntec off to cine . it was raining . i told melanie . my predictions are right ((: who's the smart one now huh ! haha . okay . so it was raining . i had a jacket to cover . but melanie has nothing lah . so i was kind to lend her my jacket . and i had nothing ? so cold you know .

because i said i was cold . we made 2 new friends ? haha

long story lazy to write about it . haha .

mm . imagine two beng guys carrying a big bag , i mean HUGE . as in can fit a person . they were carrying it around and the bags are black someor . damn funny making fun of them . they look like terrorist . haha .

so the terrorists(fake) asked us sit with them . okay so we talk talk . played cards . haha . then suddenly the manager came to us and told us we cant play .

manager: excuse me , you are not allowed to play cards here
ahbeng : budden we play very long already leh
manager: (thinking what to reply) but but i didnt see here .
ahbeng : now then ask . almost finish our game already then disturb us .
manager : nothing to say . haha (kena bang !)

aftr cine decided to go to esplanade . haha . we find the place so long in the end dont need to meet terrorists already . haha . then went to find charmain at marina . food court with xinyi (: then food court with lim and her ice kacang . haha .laugh to much , she cnt eat . mum called then pangseh her . sorry !

off to arab street with haider , dad and mum . was full so didnt have anything . home (: yay . tv with haider . tsk he is irritating i tell you .

i guess i miss you too

LOVES ;

2006-12-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

early morning woke up =(

8am =( boohoo . i slept at like 5?got ready for work . then waited for bus 14 to go to tanah merah mrt for like 40 mins ? i can reach orchard by that time lah ! grrr .

in the mrt . next to me was a old man . omg . i cant stand him . he smells like vomit . the moment he sat next to me i almost vomited . the vomit went to my throat . im not being drama or anything . really . he fucking sticks . omg . he sucks . someone should introduce him perfume ? maybe shampoo

walked to forum . its like so ulu lah . far far . okay lah . not that far . toys r us . finding that marcus person. i dont know how he look like how to find lah . haha . but in the end he found me . haha . sound like blind date right . no lah . he is my boss ? no i think he is a little too young to be a boss . i have no idea who he is lah .

so we set up the table and everything . talked to marcus . haha . we talked about studies and stuff . i thought he was like 20 or 19 like that . but he is only 17 . and i think he is gay =x . no offence . but i think so . he is abit girly . haha . sooo . peilin . now i found a gay (; haha . i thought all gays are handsome . but i dont think marcus is . ha . he changed my perspective of gays =(

okay . so worked like super long lah . then the bigshot from hongkong suppose to come between 3 to 5 but he came at 6 plus nearing 7 ? you think you very big arh . make me wait so long . tsk . so i was like a loner . but my loves kept me occupied with flooding smses (:

i'll thank those people later (:

so when the bigshot arrived . no children were there . obviously lah . he chase them all away (:

oh yea . its damn funny how parents give all kinds of excuses so they do not need to buy them toys . if they dont want to buy then why bother coming to toy'r'us ? (singapore's greatest toystore) and it's damn cute how the small little kiddos will beg and cry just to get those toys . haha . i guess we all have been there , done that .

so 7 plus i had an hour break . YAY . instead of dinner . i went window shopping ? haha . havent gone shopping for a long time , couldnt resist . but didnt have anyone's opinion . haha .

8 plus packed everything (: 9 signed out . then took 36 then 43 home (:

okay . thanks to charmain , xinyi , leo , melvin , marcus(boss) and few others . but their smses were not entertaining me . haha .

YAY . AT LAST .

LOVES ;

2006-12-01T01:24:00.000+08:00

boring boring day .

actually , it wasnt so bad . haha . pink panther with mummy and haider ((: then devils wear prada with mummy . i think pink panther was a better movie . i better not tell haider this or he will give me that i told you so face !

marina with xinyi (: . xinyi want to do a stupid thing . haha . and i played along ? haha . i was too bored to bother about the 4cents i wasted . (charmain is m1 so 2cents per sms only) ((: . this is what we did

xinyi and i smsed charmain . this is how it went

xinyi : hello
me : where
xinyi : are
me : you

get it ? its retarded dont blame me . it was xinyi's brilliant idea ((:

so marina square to find charmain , jiayu and amelia . talk talk . taiti with xinyi . traffic jam is like making my brain burst . so fustrating . about 10 plus headed home . bus 10 home with xinyi and charm (:

im chatting with ian now . and i think this is damn funny

-=¤!!! ïÃn !!!¤=- (+44) says:
dun bully miie worx

and ian stop bullying max lah . he so poorthing .

LOVES ;

2006-12-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

okay . so MINAH DAY TODAY ((:

only for me that is . haha . tried to dress up like minah . i can make it okay . bung maybe cannot . but minah can okay ! haha . but i look like shit lah . not going to wear that for a long time from now .

soo . waited for everyone to come my house instead after waiting for like 2 hours they asked me to head down to nicole's house . i did . brought her mahjong tiles along . its like freaking heavy i tell you .

nicole's house . movie time ((: . john tucker must die ! yeah . nice show and american pie ? i think jiayu is so engrossed in the movie lah . tsk tsk . she wants to see the mother(not his own mother) have sex with the flitch (is it ?) forgot . haha .

after that headed to marina square visit xinyi , peilin and amelia . taiti with charm and peilin . haha . yay . i want to play again ! badminton too ? mahjong also ! soon please ?

about 10 ate macs . first meal of the day . walked to suntec bus stop . bus 10 home with xinyi and charm ((: jiayu and charm exchanged mp3's . and jiayu is so smart , her mp3 no battery le . haha . jiayu i like your attitude (: i was kind enough to lend charmain my hp (:

yay . done for today . tmr ? what am i doing . im becoming more and more forgetfull oh no .

and and . my bro fixed my speakers . YAY I LOVE HIM . weeeee . its nice now . its hanging on the wall . hohoho . looks cool . all i need to do now is change my room colour and get a new light . haha . i want to paint my room maroon . yeah . and i need a light desperately . mummy buy me one ? or maybe a christmas present from someone ? haha .

You seemed so much happier with me, Or maybe that's just the way I wanted it to be.

LOVES ;

2006-11-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

haven't posted for a few days already ..

mm. okay . so yesterday went to sentosa with sharmaine pang . sad . ju couldnt make it . anyway . ju take care . don't eat so much rubbish food ! see lah . see what happened . haha . joking (:

soo . sharmaine came to my house first . waited for mum to come back home . yay ! she finally came back . yay . i sort of missed her . but i had more freedom as my papa will let me go out till late (:

she bought for me a nice dress/blouse ? haha . but its like formal formal . aiya . will wear it during christmas perhaps or new year ((:

so we took bus 10 to harbourfront . the bus driver drove damn slow . but dont know why we only took 30 mins to reach . kinda fast huh . soo . vivocity . shop shop ((: . i mean window shopping . didnt have money to buy anything . haha . im bankrupt .someone wanna do a good deed ? please donate to me (less fortunate)

took bus inside sentosa . walked to the hotel . the room is damn small lah . ohmy . its like so minute .so slacked in the hotel . watched musical fountain . was so boring =( and water splash on us . tsk tsk .

hotel slack again . eat eat . the cup noodles sucks lah .then sharmaine's mum took the softer bed . and she gave us the rock one . how nice eh . our bed is like sleeping on a wooden plank ? that hard !

couldnt sleep on that bed . so melvin saved my day by calling me and entertaining me (: YAY ! thank you ((: . he call with his hp lah . so kind someor 3 hours . weeee ! he is kind kind ((: couldnt talk loud so had to hide in the toilet and talk . haha . so scary lah

reminds me of patrick lah . last time also must hide in toilet and hide for like 1 hour ? my oh my . if his father had found out i was there i wouldnt be here already . so scary . but thats the past . arghhh . shit . 2 years ago le ?

okok . i need to tell myself to forget about the past . shit lah . forget forget forget !

okay . continue . mm . so talked till 4 then sharmaine was super tired . so we went in the room . smsed melvin till i slept .

morning suppose to watch sunrise . sorry too tired . mm . woke up about 7 or 8 plus . so early lah . then bathed and walk walk around . 10 plus went to vivo to shop ? haha . morning shopping ? we looked like retards i tell you . so early go shopping . kiasu lah. scared the stuff run out of stock ? haha .

11 plus off to tanah merah with sharmaine . sharm went there to meet rachel . i went home . sorry couldnt stay longer . at the bus stop , saw christie . so coincidence . haha . talked to her awhile . bus came . then home (:

dinner and watched click with family . YAY .

brother fixing my speakers . yay . now my com has five speakers . woohoo . yay! oh yes i need hammer . anyone care to lend me ?

i want badminton tomorrow . PLEASE LIM ?

p.s charmain is pretty .

and i don't think you will bother to read this but there's no harm wishing you once again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAOQIANG . i dont know why we ended up like this . oh well . you're finally fifteen .we'll talk soon ? i hope . i'm still here for you . take care yea . stay happy (:

LOVES;

2006-11-26T00:21:00.000+08:00

arghhhhh . someone make me smile please :(

its has been 2 years . do you remember this day ? i doubt so . if only i held on . if only . but who am i to you now ? you talk to me when you are bored or when you need help ? now i know how you treat love .

fuck it . no more love for me . no more . not gonna get hurt by jerks like you anymore .

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh . and its my mum's bday to day . i ought to be happy . i'll try . but she isnt even here to see me . she's in malacca with god knows who ? her handphone is switched off so i cant even wish her .

someone help me please =( .

oh well .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY . LOVE YOU <3

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

LOVES;

2006-11-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

YAY ! looking forward for this day!

out with juliana , nicole and charmain (:

just the four of us ((; hehe . nobody has the ring except me =(

at 3 met juliana and melissa at mos burger then soon after charmain came . at about 4 plus nicole came too . headed to marina square . first thing went to eat at food court then walked around . all four of us can get lost there . marina aquare is damn confusing dont you think ?

find jiayu and amelia . nicole soon looks like amelia . haha . play play with toy cars and doremon and trains ! see people eat dinner . at about 9 plus nicole went off then me and charm was hungry so we ate dinner too . then about 10 plus walked to suntec to take bus ((:

melissa joined us . bus 36 . saw donna and clara in the bus

then went to charmain house to dye hair . haha . hair turned out horrible ? i think . it just looks weird . our medium blond turned out just brown ? such a disaster .

tomyam and milo at four in the morning . charmain slept she was too tired . ton on the phone . haha . ton till 8 am ((: not bad right . charmain take so much space . tsk . only my head was on the bed . imagine how poorthing i am .

walked through canal to take bus . see im so kind charmain (:

13 home (: yay . no more green nail polish

anyone wanna come over my house now . got good foood! tempting ?

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2006-11-24T19:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROWENA ((:

2006-11-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEILIN (:

morning , escape . sunny sunny , sweat sweat then suddenly it rained . slippery slippery :D could play anymore so bus 12 home , on the way home took out money at last i had money ((: bathed and changed .

off to parkway (: to buy cake then headed to katong for karoke ? plan would have worked out fine if only chaiming and peilin would have walked faster.

so everybody singing song and eating cake (: after 3 hours of singing headed to city hall then mrt to lakeside then prawning placed . reached prawning place then found out we were at the wrong one so cabbed down to bird park there (the right prawning place) .

foood . bbq and prawning ? haha .

oh yea west side is damn dirty lah . one day i saw a snake , rat/mouse and a green fly . tsk

it is either the cleaners in the west who dont do their job or people in the west who abuse the environment (:

at about 11 whole family came to pick me up . haha . singing with my brother . haha . then haider went to get coffee andd arab street then home (:

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2006-11-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

work again ! this time different job . haha . clothes ! this is more boring . no company .at least flyers got ian to talk to . haha .

so worked from 11 to 8 . not bad right . imagine how tired and bored i was . i smsed about 150 sms? haha .

saw karishma's dad . long time never see him . he didnt reconise me . and he asked me a something which made me sad =(

he asked if i was still schooling ! do i look like i dont go to school ? =(((((

i study okay ! i love studying ! oh maybe i dont . maybe only maths ! but i go to school ~

then saw huiyan . i'm like seeing her everyday lah . haha . so weird .
then saw my uncle and aunty . haha . so weird lah .

after work went dinner with them . laksa . then home at 10plus ?

uncle send me home . YAY !

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2006-11-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

mahjong till morning at my house .

money money money ((:

jac i still have to pay you 20 cents back right ? or do you owe me $1 . haha . AND AND . amelia ! you never pay anything !

OH YA ! my nails are finally greeeeeeeeeeeeeen !

okay so morning . rush rush ! im sorry people ! sorry to make you eat hot hotdogs .

so work . ian im late again . dont blame me this time ! im sorry though . haha . flyers . so tiring . i really gave out this time . 12noon break . ian insisted in eating macs . so followed him but didnt eat . while he was eating . ck called asking us to go up . then xiao hui ? sort of fired us ? ha . it was kinda funny actually . haha .

so we got money then went to banquet to eat . ((: sorry took 1 hour to eat . haha . people eat slow cannot blame lah . haha .

then went home (: slpt till 6 . only 4 hours of sleeppp !

more sleeep please ?!

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2006-11-16T01:34:00.000+08:00

work again !! met ian late . im so so so sorry . you had training someor . oh my . im sorry . i feel so guilty . ian is becoming darker and darker . so sad . he is going to look like a bangla soon . sad huh . haha .

so went to office collect flyers . off to max's house . mahjong . yay ! max didnt even win ? haha . loser . then david ? who ever that is came . wahh all guys . i only one girl . so scary . now i know how ian feels when he went to charmain's house . haha

then back to parkway . money ! top up bus card . withdraw $20 . now im bankrupt ! sad !

home . bathed . met xinyi at my bus stop then headed to east coast . went to subway wait for everyone for like 1 hour ? or is it 2 ? haha so long lah . tsk . everyone came at like 8 plus 9 ? so then cabbed down to bedok85 on the way picked up xinning from siglap .

and guess what . bedok 85 was CLOSED ~wth lah ! then took bus 14 to bedok central food court at eastwood there .FOOD AT LAST !haha . sting ray ! yum yum . SAMBAL I LIKE !weeee

then mother hen or whatever you call it .
london bridge (:

home (: 3 bus stops ! aha

yay . home at last . i miss my mummy and daddy . long time never talked to them . sad sad =(

oh yea ! tomorrow mahjong at my house ! yay ! anyone who can bring food are most welcome ! thank you for your co-operation (:

P.S : XINYI . green nail polish ((: and instant noodles . and CANDY !

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2006-11-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

work again at 12 this time . so early lah . i met ian t 11.30 =( so early . no wait i was late . 11.45 i mean . sorry i made you wait !

mm . so i entered and everyone asked me if i just woke up . didnt know i looked that sleepy .okay so i was suppose to go tao nan primary and ian was suppose to go katong convent primary . but instead went to library (:

yay . bought green tea . ian bought twisties and pink dolphin before going in . hide hide . then side and children's level at the corner . ian tan jun xing ! you asshole want to sleep also cannot . keep moving the table . tsk . asss !

ian's music taste sucks lah . some not too bad . but some are like noisy . i mean can wake up your whole family those kind . rock until cannot rock ! so about 1.45 left library and headed back to office to collect money .

went home . then bro send me to parkway . on the way he bought cigrattes and pumped petrol ! tsk . his petrol so cheap . only $10 he say till like $100 lah ! then while on the motorcycle gave him massage . such a nice passenger right ? hehe . so reached parkway . junita , chaiming and xinning pointing at me while my bro drived pass while shouting ARSHUUUUUUUUUU . imagine . damn retarded .

then went to esplanade with people . ate chicken rice . then went to suntec to find jiayu and charmain . after that esplanade . monkey ? football ? oh my long hair sucks . i cant see anything. find find find the ball . im like a blind person i tell you . in the end fell . oh yea. so did ralvin .HAHA .

10 home .

i was home before 12 ! YAY ! and i didnt get scolding . coz parents not at home .YAY !

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2006-11-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

work at 1pm with ian

he went to tkp i went to kcp . 1.30 had no more flyers . guess how it disappeared ? haha . went to meet ian at katong . ate hotdog with him . went to tien ee's house . nice house .

but his room is like FREAKING MESSY ! I'M A MESSY PERSON BUT I FEEL LIKE CLEANING HIS ROOM ! SO IMAGINE HOW FREAKING MESSY IT IS . I SHOULD HAVE TAKEN PHOTO OF IT . ITS LIKE SHIT I TELL YOU . WORST THEN PIG'S STY ? ERR . MAYBE NOT TO THAT EXTEND . HAHA .

sooo . after tien ee house . back to office to report . get money . then waited from xinyi and charm to come . then galare at siglap!! . yum yum .after then home . check newspaper with charm and xinyi for jobs . haha .

either rejected , engage or never reply ! tsk !

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2006-11-13T23:28:00.000+08:00

weee . had long sleep today ! but my brother friends are so bloody noisy lah !

tsk . met charm . i was waiting for her to call me so i can leave lah . she took 2 hours to get ready ? wth lah ! im like waiting like a fool ! soo took 14 to suntec with her then met jiayu . looked for jobs . i have like so many jobs now lah ! hahaha . nvm . more the merrier!

then went back to carefour to meet her . then played with stupif stuff . haha . it was fun though . haha . okay then took bus 10 home with them . they came over to my house for awhile . you both do what on the bed arhh ? haha ((:

okay . they went back about 1 hour ago . tmr got work again . haha . boring . after that gelare with charm . anyone else interested ? feel free to join .

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2006-11-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

work at 2 - 4pm

tired !!

2000 flyers ! 6 blocks ! 24 storeys !

die die . tired . leg for blister .

after work took cab with ian . the taxi driver never listen to me =((( tsk . drive him first . then he happy happy lah ! tsk ! so went to lim's house . haha .

then to parkway with her and her parents . replacement of darren ? haha

hoho . so macs . then M1 . lim got new line . haha . help mummy to choose for her handphone . haha . then after that wanted to meet xinyi they all . ran for the 36 . but they came out . we both look like freaks i tell you !

then 43 home (:

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2006-11-11T22:54:00.000+08:00

im posting this on 13 nov (:

sorry had no time to post about friday's mahjong night at juns place (:

soo . before heading to jun's place me and charm went to orchard . we ate sakae sushi at heeren (: dapao some for xinyi and friends . then we walked around till about 5 plus then decided to go to amelia's house since we had no where to go . then we took mrt to her house then walked like dont know how many kilometers just to reach her block !!

so at her house . oh my . her mum eve dropped on me and charm . so scary . haha . played taiti and ball ? haha .

went to jurong east mrt to meet jac? [ AH BENG (: ] then headed to ponggol which was like the other side of singapore

so we like went from

east coast -----> orchard -------> jurong -------> ponggol

wow . madness . so we like travelled all around singapore ((:

juns house .

mahjong , movies , ghost stories , personal experience , silly but funny performances by chaiming , foood and uno ((:

all this stuff started from 11pm (10 nov ) to 9am (11 nov)

without much sleep . so after that . clean up then 43 home then bathed 43 back to parkway to meet all of them again .RAINING ! TSK ! pool ((: long time since i last played ! then met ian . went for work 4pm to 6pm . 2000 flyers ((:

ian took passport photo . i want to see =( grrr .

then he came over to my place . videos . songs , tv

then he went home about 10 plus 11 .

tired =( . didnt sleep for 48 hours . so slept at 12 ((:

bring back those nights when i held you beside me

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2006-11-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

okay so today was a really fun day ..

went out with karina today . haha . took like lots of pics lah . only posted a few . haha . lazy lah . anyways we went to vivo . shop shop . try clothes . makan and yea . thats about it . haha . but had a great time . haha . laughing at god knows what . haha

so karina get hooked to red bull . quote from karina '' redbull is heaven in a can''

haha . loser lah . at about 7 plus her mum fetched us and her god sis . her god sis son is like freaking cute !only 2 weeks old ! ohmy . haha . so when reached her house i took bus 10 home . home about 7.30 . haha .

mm been watching shows on youtube . weee . nice nice . season 4 came out already . shiok shiok . tmr cutting hair and mahjong at jun's ! wee . cant wait . oh yea . and sushi with charmain . yum yum .

OH YEA .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSHUA ((((:

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2006-11-08T01:40:00.000+08:00

yay so today was kinda out the whole day

went out with patrick in the afternoon . yay . i got my pooh and piglet from him .they are both super huge lah . yay ! thank you so much ((: so we watched convenant . not that bad . two of the guys were hot (: . haha . so yea . went to ps to find card to call overseas for patrick and buy his notebook for CO

about 5.45 went home . reached home about 6.30 . then 7 went out for dinner with family friends . long time havent gone out with them . they are a good company (: so had dinner at katong . STINGRAY , YU TIAO (: YUM YUM . then after dinner . haagen daaz ! ohmy . yum yum again . so chat chat then went home at about 10 plus .

i still dont understand . why must you keep that from me . i already know you and amelia are together . so why bother hiding? i know i dont like you anymore but what happen to our friendship , our trust ? ha . im just a replacement for everything i've done for you . who do you think i am ?

oh yea . there's this other person . argh . i really cant stand you . why must you copy what ever i do ! arghh . you are really getting on my nerves ! urgh . no mind of your own eh ? fuck off lah bitch! shut up and know where you stand bitch . you re no rival to me , you are nobody !

okay so i've been irritated easily . but oh well pms ? no im not going to blame it on that . your just a bitch i cant stand .

okay . so tomorrow out with karina . YAY (: lovely darling (:

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2006-11-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

boring day .

woke up freaking late . i never woke up so late before . i feel like a pig lah . haha . nvm i slept late anyway , so you can't blame me . talked on the phone till 3 i think . i forgot . hehe i was kind to let ian sleep okay (:

weeee . today i didnt do anything . wanted to go to patrick's house to collect my pooh !!! haha . patrick you better not bully it ! but he wasnt at home so he asked me to go tomorrow . he was at his friends house . hope his mother wont be in tomorrow or i will just die from heartattack .

after that didnt do much . watched tv and chat thats about all .

i think the australia trip is really cancelled =( . my mum is being a bitch and not letting me stay in the hotel . argh . im still pissed . maybe nicole we will just go malaysia together okay ? mm . sorry yea . i will try to talk to my mum again .

thursday anyone free to go out ??!

come back , from whereever you are , whereever

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2006-11-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

weeee (: fun day today .

afternoon was boring though .

i was damn bored at home so i smsed charmain , so we could go out . then she called me asking if i wanted to go her house to play mahjong . but we needed another person , so i asked ian if he wanted to come . haha . he was okay with it .

got ready and met ian at st pats bus stop . we walked in to charm house . from st pats bus stop he wants to take taxi in ? what a lazy bum lah . tsk . so when we reached then charm came out to fetch us ? good timing eh ?

soo we went in her house . played mahjong . ian doesnt look like he knows how to play lah . haha . but he won the first game lah ! tsk ! he is actually not that bad . weeeheee . i found another mahjong friend . this time guy . haha . not bad (:

so after awhile we played taiti . person who is left with the most card , drinks water ! . haha . full sia . then after that xinning , junita and xinyi came . haha . played someor mahjong , taiti and uno ! . haha fun fun. jokes , laughter , food , SCREAMS , NOISE ((:

at about 10 plus went home . bus 14 home (:

arghh. im pissed with my mum now . arghh . its damn irritating =( i think the australia trip is cancelled. first juliana backed out . now this. bloody hell . you want the money so much then take it . all you think about is money . argh . dad work so hard . all you think is money . he come home . you ask money . everything money ! money minded !

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2006-11-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

boring boring (:

practically the whole day at home .

in the morning pui pui came to my room and keep waking me up , and the way he wake me up is damn irritating is like whinning like that !

show you how it sounds ... i mean type out how it sounds

ARSHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! WAKE UPPPPPPP . ARSHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU . ARSHUUUUUUUUUUUUUU .

HE KEEPS ARSHU-ING !

in the end , thanks to his irritating voice , i managed to wake up . its like an irritating alarm clock lah

oh yea . i just remember something funny about my boss . so you know my boss is indian right ? you know how he pronouces BUS STOP as BUSSY STOPE ( BUST - SEEE STOP - PER)

ITS DAMN DISGUSTING . I CANT STOP LAUGHING . NEXT TIME YOU WANNA HEAR HOW HE SAYS IT THEN I WILL DEMONSTRATE FOR YOU (: OR IF YOU ARE AS BORED AS ME NOW YOU CAN JUST GIVE ME A CALL ((:

so i shall carry on with my day . woke up stoned awhile , ate lunch then i think thats about all i did . besides chat lah . haha .

so about 7 plus left for changi village . and NO . not to see bapok . to eat dinner . haha . good food . then came home ((: . okay post for today is short . tmr will be as short i think .

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2006-11-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

woke up early today because had to reach THE CATHAY at 1 . so woke up at about 11 (early for me) then stone awhile then got ready and left for cathay . met ian in the bus 14 then went together .

reached at about 1 , he was hungry so we ate at longjohn , combo 1 with cheese (: . first ian look at the cheese with that shitty look in the end he ended up eating most of the cheese . tsk .

so after eating manfen still hadnt reached yet , so we went to the cathay to buy thr movie tickets . took quite awhile to decide what to watch . ian kept wanting to watch flushed away . some cartoon show . damn childish lah . in the end we decided to watch dead of alive . alot of girls lah . ian like . bloody cheekopek . i paid for manfen ticket first because ian knew that if he paid first he would get the money back . smart boy

so while waiting for her . ian was super bored lah . he wanted to wear my watch then help him wear . damn funny i tell you . he looks super gay lah . damn retarded . laughed a hell lot . he says it looks like power rangers . go and die lah .

we went to starbucks to drink coffee . actually to kill time . so bought mocha . shared with him . he never drink much lah =( . waste my money only . though he paid half . after awhile manfen came . at last ? like queen like that . tsk tsk .

so slacked around cathay . talking talking then went to plaza singapura walk walk then go back to cathay then watched to movie . nice movie ((: should go and watch

after that went to plaza sing macs and headed to macs to sit . talked talked awhile then manfen went to bugis meet her family . me and ian went to top up my ezlink then took 14 . bus damn packed . had to stand half the journey . got one girl very cute in the bus .. she took so long to sit on the seat . so cute loh .

listened to songs .most of my songs he dont like lah =( he have bad taste in music . reached home at about 6 or 7 not so sure . then bathed changed and went to meet everyone at parkway macs .paint nails (: weee . macs become madicure shop lah (: . xinyi my avid reader paints good (: paint my nails again please (:

so after that headed to nicole house . loud screams , I DONT LIKE ! NOISY LAH . then went to nicole house . coffeee ! yum . then computer ! then MAHJONGGGG ! amelia and peiling and chaiming arrived later . we played mahjong ! woohoo . i win many times . im happy . last week never win much . yesterday fenhshui good. people gave me good cards (: amelia , you lah . very nice (: we played mahjong from 11pm till 8 am ? or then packed everything . then continued again (: YAY !

we played bridge . nice nice . i get it now ! lets play again , xinyi ? weeeee ! oh then eastside and westsiders ! so fun . so nice comparing . haha . everyone bully amelia but im innocent (: . haha . oh yea . then the dumb sisters !

XINYI AND XINNING ! SO FUNNY LAH !

dumb sisters without the S ? then xinning was like iter? how dumb can she get eh . damn funny . if only they could create a show . most watched i tell you ! funny sia . next time i take video then post it on youtube okay ? their dumbness will be repected internationally

after that mum kept calling . in the end went home . bathed changed and left for work . went to boss house to see clothes . then when he asked me to watch tv , i slept ! so paiseh lah ! omg . im sorry . didnt slp you know .

left for the exhibition . work was boring . smsing all the way . those people who are bored just sms me i can entertain you . finished work at 10.30 . took cab home . nobody's home . no keys . locked outside . waited for brother to come home then soon after nicole and dwayne came over .

parents home . got fucked up . irritating lah . shout here shout there . in the end bye bye dwayne he went to my bro room to slp . then talked to melvin awhile . guess what i dont remember i word i say besides bye bye and hello . haha . sry was very tired . today talk to you will be energetic okay ?

yay this post ended ! woohoo . i love everyone who reads this .

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2006-11-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

just made my blogskin not long ago . haha . nice not . looks weird though ?

soo today kinda boring day . talked to hazel on the phone for like 3 hours . haha . retarded sia . then bathed ate dinner , then went to parkway to meet nicole and dwayne . ate chengteng . the chengteng put weird stuff in it lah . tsk tsk .

after that walk walk , saw xinyi charm they all . went home not long after that . home at 10 .

damn short post eh .

xinyi you will read this faster than yesterday (:

Where you are the one,the one,
That lies close to me.
Whispers, "Hello,
I miss you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.
Now there's no place else,
I could be, but,
Here in your arms.

I like,
Where you sleep,
When you sleep,
Next to me.
I like,
Where you sleep,
Here.

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2006-11-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

today went to outram to give back tag then went to taka to meet nicole . walked to fareast then walked around then headed to the cathay to watch movie . while waiting for the show timing we ate long john . then went to watch death note . its not a scary movie as in its not a scary movie . its just like any ordinary movie just that the stort line is not that bad .

so after the movie went to geylang with nicole to meet dwayne and friends . took cab there , some guy paid for me . i dont know his name . actually i forgot . sit sit . talk talk . laugh laugh . so many prostitudes sia. then so eeyer . then the guys keep staring at me =( thats what nicole said . never see girl before arh . someor i wore shorts and tshirt lah not say very revealing . tsk . chee ko peks .

so after that went to eat yutiao and tahui (how ever you spell that) , took 13 home (: was talking to melvin . but i told him i went to bathe but actually was chatting online . anyone who know him . dont tell him . haha .

you used to hear my favourite song everyday ,
but now you don't even know the title of the song

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2006-11-01T00:22:00.000+08:00

ha. last day of work (:

hahaha. this sounds retarded but its true . wee . shall tell you kpo people a full detailed story ((:

okay so went to work at 7.45am today . was 15 minutes early (: so had meeting . their meeting is so weird. they on techno music . i mean BLAST techno music . its like so not meeting lah then we must talk louder then the music . WTF LAH !?! neighbour never complain meh ? so noisy . haha .

so meeting was kinda retarded . its like camp lah . you know when i say OK . you say ALRIGHT ? those kind . so retarded lah . this is the most unsofisticated place lah . so childish lah . then after this childish ''meeting'' , we practiced preaching to each other. so hard lah . so paiseh lah . then the manager keep looking at me . tsk tsk . so scary lah . then after preaching got our products from nigel .

helped kelvin tie his tie. he tie so long . haha still havent tie finish then i offered to help him though i dont know him at all . oh well . im friendly you see (: kelvin tattoos are nice . he has diamond , clubs , hearts and spades on his fingers . one on each . so nice lah . haha . i like ! but never will i do a tattoo (:

so after meeting , walked to chinatown mrt with new girl , lisa and siva (forgot her long long name) then took mrt to boonlay then took bus 257 (i think) to the fucking keppel shipyard . went there ,was fucking disgusted . full of bloody banglas . all starting like never see girl before. felt like going to kena rape soon lah .

the tried to preach customers but they kept rejecting and one guy whistled . we thought he was a security or something but we went there and asked him why he called us then this is how the convesation went

me and siva : you called us ??

asshole : no . i whistled for fun only

me and siva : wtf ? fucking chee ko pek

asshole : (smile smile and look at siva censored areas)

after that we fucking left this place and headed to boonlay . then went to boonlay but there wasnt any food court or hawker around so we went to clementi then tried preaching people . soon after we gave up and i didnt want to work in this kind of fucking sick place. i rather not have money then appoach banglas every single day . sooo . eeeyer !

so me and my colleagues went to slack at macs for 2 hours i think .i decided to quit the job then . then i smsed my mum for fun saying that i want to quit then she replied ''yay we can have fun together '' . she is so cute la

asked farah for another job .after like 2 min the guy smsed me . soon after went to preach again . soon after about hundreds of rejections we gave up . so we took bus to outram . talked , laughed all the way . was really fun lah . didnt really care about the job . ha it sucked anyway . so we slacked from 2-6 doing god knows what . haha .

went back to office . siva got a hell lot of scolding fros andy , nobody actually scolded me . so i was safe . but it was obvious i didnt like the job lah because i kept going against the manger and the guy from H.Q . aiya . they con people one loh . everyone thought is office work in the end is irritating people's job . tsk . cheat my feelings

had meeting again then after than andy called me to the room . then he asked if i liked this job . i said no , i stongly wanted to quit liao mah . then he said would you like this to be your last day . then i say i dont mind . haha . stupid answer but ohwell im honest lah .

i was smiling like mad when i quit lah . haha . i feel so evil .who cares . so i asked mum to pick me up because was in a rush , had another interview at semei at 8 . so went home , bathed changed ate dinner then headed to east point to meet that guy . till now i still dont know his name . haha . i save his name under ''.'' haha .

i got that job. selling clothes at hyaat hotel and orchard hotel not bad lah the job . haha . i think im starting on thursday luckily the guy is nice he fix the timings according to my liking . woohooo . and the working hours aren't that long .

weee . im happy (: i feel so fast lah . today quit on the same day get another job . pro hor (:

okay xinyi is waiting for my post . haha im sorry i took so long . i was chatting at the same time(:

dear god , bring back 26 november 2004 =( .
it has almost been 2 years but i still love you

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2006-10-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

first day of work .

ha. was kinda late . traffic jam . reached work at about 8.55am . 10 minutes late . not too bad lah.

first went in . met 2 girls . around my age while nigel was having meeting . their meeting got techno music and it was blasting ? so weird lah . what kind of meeting is this . haha . you must be thinking what kind of company is this . haha

thats what i was thinking at first . and guess what we do . you know those irritating people who go to you and ask you to buy their product then say you buy this then you get this free . yea. im going to be one of those irritating people

but it is damn boring . i was talking on the phone half the while cause it was just a training day for me . tomorrow will be thousand time worse ! hope to sell my products fast so i can rest rest (:

so guess where we went to sell the products ? JURONG ! so bloody far . it was almost near malaysia . you know where all those industries are , there . omg . it was so ulu .

aim - meet 250 people !

siao lah . social until cannot social sia . haha

then after selling products took bus to jurong point then took mrt to outram park then walk to office . so far ! tsk ! legs are aching man ! so had another interview . passed it (: yay . but i dont like the job . my legs are aching ! grr !

nvm , after one month im gonna quit and enjoy life ! wooohoooo . this month shall suffer during weekdays and party during weekends (: soo . after work took 174 to outram park mrt than to tanah merah then 14 home . long eh ? imagine how tired i am now . i didnt even get to sit in the mrt . how pathetic is that ! urgh !

im exhausted right now . need rest as i sleept for 3 hours cause of nicole soon and dwayne ! tsk .talk so much ! tsk tsk tsk . shall sleep at 1 or 2 today (: tomorrow is going to be another long day . boohoo .

im starting to hate work on the first day ! argh. another month to suffer . nvm . i shall countdown . i shall exclude weekends (:

23 days more (: not too bad . will pass fast lah . haha . shall take few days off . dont want to work so much . but need MC . okay . long day tomorrow . people sms me during work . it is super boring there !

thats all for today

i miss having you around , my boy

LOVES

2006-10-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

went shopping today !

ohno . i spend $75 on a blouse ! ohmy . my heart break ! but its nice lah . formal formal . shall not wear it so soon . save it till christmas (: shall wear it to karina's house i hope (: okay . so came home .

dad's friend came over . after that ordered pizza for dinner . full full (: yum yum . nothing much . watched johnny english . funny movie .

oh shit . i need shoes ! i need palms ! ohno . all i have are slippers ! and i cant wear them to work tomorrow . shit lah . anyone can lend ? =D . PLEASE ?

oh nvm . boss just smsed me . can wear formal slippers . hoho . dont need lend le . woohoo .. weeeeeee.

sian . tmr work is going to be boring . tsk . going to work alone . oh well . independant eh ? haha i wish . so boring lah . then lunch eat myself .so loner la . grr.

okayy . soo tmr is chinese o lvl . mm . GOOD LUCK JOSHUA (:

okay . damn bored now . anyone reading this . talk to me in msn and you better tag (:

MAHJONG ON FRIDAY (: YAY ! CANT WAIT .

LOVES ;

2006-10-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

okay . this is going to be a sad post .

my maid left today =( . family and I went to send her off . had coffee and starbucks before she left . oh i miss her so =(

when she said bye to my mum and dad she was already sad . the moment she hugged me she cried . =( i will miss her .

everytime she would remember what clothes i was wearing when she first saw me . it was a green kangaroo tshirt and yellow pants and she would remember i tied two ponytails =) .

i miss how we used to sleep in the television room every saturdays and we would talk whole night .

i miss how we played water at the back . haha .

i miss how you would nag if i didnt eat

i miss how we used to talk for hours

i miss all the songs you used to create and sing to me . they were GREAT :D

i miss the times when we would go to 7/11 and buy food ((:

i miss the times when we would go to bedok for shopping

i miss how you would show me all the clothes you bought .

i miss how you could not decide on what to buy .

i miss how you would do retarded stuff and laugh .

i miss how you say you're fine when its obvious you just cried

i miss how sotong you are

i miss when you tickle me

lastly i miss having you around

she just smsed me . she go on the plane not long ago . she should be reaching in a few hours from now .

she is gonna get married in feb or jan . i hope i could go there . but it wouldnt be holidays . skip sch i hope ?

boy , i give up .
2 years , i think its enough .
i know , you know , even if there's love , there wouldn't be any us .
everyday i pray , hoping you'd be mine again .
but i guess she's yours now .
god does everything for a reason .

i guess god wants you to be happy .
you're happier with her .

without you there's nothing
i'm alive , but where's life without you

LOVES ;

2006-10-27T15:44:00.000+08:00

played mahjong yesterday night till today morning at charm's (:

after a long night of mahjong , i'm still craving for another game !
charm ? another night ? haha .

ha. went home at noon . didnt go to tm with everyone else . mum wanted to go out as i promised her we would go for the sale together . so yea . went home . got dressed but waited for my brother to come home from school . went there bought a shirt . nice (:

mum picked dad up from office then went for lunch . dropped bros home then headed to bedok for blow dry . i'm going to highlight my hair soon . maybe on sunday . i'm not sure . i think i've enough money . i hope i do .

i think i'm going to highlight a silvery greenish greyish blondish colour . imagine it . nice eh ?

so went home slept awhile . didn't get to sleep much the night before . slept for an hour then got dressed and headed to fort canning park for the hari raya function .

it was fun . some coolio guy danced. he was so cute . oh my . he so COOLIO (: . haha. so cute ! he is about 10 ? maybe slighty older or younger . he wore some coolio clothes thats why i named him coolio .

some other guy and his sister danced to that same song . it was an impromto thing . but they danced really well .

home at about 12 plus . onlined awhile . then went to sleep as i was about to go into my deep sleep , nicole called . wanted to borrow some money . so she and dwain cabbed down to my house then passed her the money and went to sleep (:

LOVES ;

2006-10-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

went to sch today . feels like havent gone to sch for a long time

got back report book .

yumita said i could have gone 3EA .

my science is my lowest marks ? haha so weird lah .

i think 3EB is better . but i dont like history . im not good at memorising . i guess i'll have to cope . lit isnt too bad i think . but i hate reading . haha . i guess i have to work extra hard next year .

mm . so im sort of satisfied with my results . wasnt too bad . but im the only one in 2EC taking amaths next year . everyone else is taking science . manfen says only about 5 people are going to take amaths . tsk ! dont curse lah . i want more !

tmr we get to know who are in our class next year . hope nice nice people . but there are many from 2EC going to 3EB . me mita and manfen are in the same class (:

ha . life's just missing something =(

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admitSometimes
I just wanna hide'
Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

LOVES ;

2006-10-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

okay . this year has been the worst .

my maid's leaving on sat =( . she cried today which made me tear soon =( . she was like ' you must take care okay . study hard. im sorry for all the mistakes i've done . dont make your parents angry .' omg . just damn sad . i'm going to miss her damn lot .

i will miss the way she wakes me up continuosly in the morning whereas my new maid just shouts my name and walks off .

i will miss the way she pronouces charmain's name (: . so cute !

i will miss going to the shops with her

i will miss her cooking !!

but oh well .she going to get married . wish her all the best (:

some people didnt believe he was with her right ? now im sure . =( . but oh well . he is happy . i should be happy too right ?but somehow i find it so hard to do so . yea . i know i love you but dont think these three words matter anymore . you have someone else for you to say it too . take good care of her . please dont hurt her .

dont think we are talking anymore . dont think you would read this either. i just hope you would . mm . take care . if only i could turn back time . oh well . 26 november is coming. i'll forget you at least i hope too .

you're one lucky girl (:

okay . so today went to grandma house in the morning for breakfast . then went home . got ready in the afternoon and went to a few of mum's friends houses . after that came home . talked . slpt . woke up not long ago . havent eaten dinner . going to eat soon though . but dont really have the mood

having pms cramp now . it really hurts=(

im going to stop here now . i dont feel like posting . oh yea. and everyone im fine , really . i dont think anyone would understand . how much pain =(

why today ? i thought today would be a better day .

maybe tomorrow then . report book tmr . i know all my results . just want to see my remarks .

okay . oh well . life really sucks .

i wish i were you ;

LOVES ;

2006-10-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

soo . didnt go sch today .

after mosque went to nicky's house then went to watch world trade centre . haha . not that bad movie . just that i hate ****** **** . haha . his face pisses me off . haha . his country is in danger and he goes to another country. what an asshole (:

mm . after that went home . slpt on the bus home . missed my stop =( . typical story eh ? haha . but luckily it was only one stop . so walked from temasek sec home . i was already so tired . imagining walking more . haha look like a walking zombie . haha

so came home . talked with mum . decided what clothes to wear on each functions . mm . took a nap as i could slp last night . thinking about some stuff . i slpt at 3 last night and woke up at 4 plus . so yea . kinda long day .

soo . i thought about somethings . i think i will just give up . he is happy with his life now . i guess its time i let go . all the things he said to me were just sweet nothings . ha . you said you loved me . if only it was true . even if it was then you wouldnt be with her would you ?

nvm . i have my friends and family (: though is not the same having to lose a best friend =( i miss you patrick =( i want my sotong friend back !

tmr will be a better day , will it ?

lets live life like there's no tomorrow (:

LOVES ;

2006-10-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

tsk . im annoyed !
i fasted the whole day till 5 or 6 and i found out i got my pms !tsk this sucks lah .im so irritated .i wanted to be holy today and pray lah !and i had to get it !tsk . god just doesnt want me to pray ! =((

haha . but still i went to the mosque but had to sit at the corner . since my cousin forced me to go . she also had her pms. so at least i had company . i was hungry . coz i sort of fasted the whole day so we went to 7/11 to buy some food while everyone was praying . haha =X

nth much happened .

not going to sch tmr . going to mosque in the morning then going to watch movie with nicky . haha . going to her house after that i guess . (:

going a dinner after that too ! wee . maybe get hari raya money (: my cousin in america is so poorthing . she only gets money from her mum . so sad lah .

oh well . guess what . i cleaned my room today ! wee . so clean !

now i welcome people to comeover . not like i dont before . but now more welcomed (:
this doesnt make sense . haha . okay .

shall end here . maybe post tmr (:

take good care of her okay?
you know im still here for you
if you wanna come back one day
you're welcomed with opened arms my love

amelia . you're one lucky girl . take care of him too . dont hurt him please .

LOVES;

2006-10-21T14:07:00.000+08:00

soo . its saturday and im not going out =( .suppose to go out with karina . but she had to go out with her friends . soo . its okay .maybe going to help my papa make the cake menu . haha. still thinking how to design it . cause most of my skins are mostly gory .

dad's been real busy making cakes . he has to make 25 cakes a day . woo . good business eh ? haha . anyone want to order more ? i dont mind . i dont think he does either . when i make the list then you see the price range . it isnt that ex lah . afordable

mm . those who want to order dont be like charmain! say want to order in the end never . tsk tsk . bad customer . hehe . no lah . joking (: but order soon okay ? i have brownies at home . come over soon . loves .

lastly . mm . talked to a friend yesterday . sort of consoled me . dont think i should reveal her name . so yea. mm . so i guess . i owe someone an apology

mm . manfen : sry yea. ytd i guess maybe i got alot on my mind . mm . even if i wanted to go with you i wouldnt be able too . i have hari raya . i need to go visiting too . so my week will be packed . hope you understand . you can go with seowling then . (: . hope you grandpa gets well soon . loves ;

okay . i guess im going to design the menu . shall post the pic up when its done .

i'm down on my knees ,
begging you to come back ;
i'm lost without you my love

LOVES ;

2006-10-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

weeee ! im happy !

so we sort of know our overall results and position ((:

and i got A2 for maths yeah ! im happy !

lets see .

english : b4 . mid year pulled my marks up ((:
maths : A2!!! weee . im super happy !
science :c5 marks pulled up too !
mt : 59 ! one bloody mark to a B ! tsk ! go and die lah
dnt :69 ! one blooodyyy freaking mark to an A2 lah ! wah lao .
homeecon : A2
history:c5 i think .
geography : b4 . not bad lah
literature : b4 =( my mid year pulled my marks down ! boo !
art :b4 , heck this sub (:

soo my overall percentage 63.1% (:
got 5th position in class ! yay !

i dont like that hua ! she is worse than eric halim ! tsk tsk !
she got 75% for her overall ! i simply feel like killing her ! tsk

so after sch i went to parkway with yumita (: didnt do much . ate (: i didnt fast cause had fever , cough , flu .. aiya . im just sick =( . dont ask me to take medicine , haha . i wont listen to you . hoho .

mmm

ANYONE UP FOR MAHJONG TONIGHT ?!

VENUE : CHARMAIN LIM HOUSE . if you dont know her . than too bad . we are anti social ppl!

i abit fussy in choosing ppl . so you must pass the interview . haha sound like you applying for job . mm . that reminds me . work is starting soon ! weee .

let see , few msgs to some people !

KARINA WENDY AUDREY VENNARD : PLEASE CHEER UP ((: i know how you feel . but thats life . we dont always get what we want . but always there is still hope yea. you dont do stupid stuff . take care my friend , love

MANFEN : hope your grandpa gets well soon . i will pray for you ((:

CHARMAIN LIM : hope you promote next year . will pray for you too ((:

NICOLE SOON : your blog is done . get the code from me . and when are the dates we are going i need to imform sandra .

okay . thats all i guess . mahjong people . interested please call my hp . dont know my hp than instant msg me in msn . dont know my msn , means i dont know you well . ha . but give it a shot . go do smth to find out my number . haha . cause abit weird to reveal my number here ..

so this is how its going to end

LOVES ;

2006-10-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

okay . so i got back all my results today =(
really disappointed . didnt meet many of my targeted grades
lets have a comparison , see if i met any of my target marks

target for EOY

english : B4
maths : A1
science : B4
mother tongue : C5 or B4 (impossible)
geography : B3
history :B3
homeecon :A2
dnt :B3
art : b4
literature : B4

achieved results for EOY
english :c5(overall might make it b4)
maths:b3(might pull up to a2 or lucky a1)
science:c6(ha fat hope)
mother tongue:c5 i think ? or just pass not sure
geo:b4(hope overall will pull my marks up)
history:c5 (most to most get b4 )
homeecon :a2
dnt:a2
art :b4
lit:b3

the underlined ones are the ones which im satisfied with

ha . look ! my results sucks !arghh . only met 5 of my targets . urghh . i really expected an A for maths . but the paper was oh so difficult !ha ! and so many careless mistakes ! arghh ! i hope i still can take A maths .

after sch went to some place to find job . haha we took so many buses today lah . haha . oh yea . and i got the job . so thats good . i start on the 30th october . i should be working for 1 month . lets see . but the working hours are quiet long . 8.45 - 5 or 6 .. but the pay isnt that bad . $1300 per month .wee . that shall be enough for shopping in australia (:

tmr sch again . boring . i rather stay at home . but oh well i dont have a choice . hope it will be better than today . ha . i feel like going shopping ! can wait till i get my pay after i work my ass off !

okay . shall end here .

LOVES ;

2006-10-15T16:25:00.000+08:00

today mm . SPECIAL DAY for 2 of my dearest . haha .

firstly . FARHAN . haha . my bro lah . weee . happy birthday . i will get you your present soon lah . stop asking me . haha . and i know your sad we aint going out for dinner . i will persuade daddy later ok ?

secondly . NICOLE SOON ((: my dear friend . HAPPY BIRTHDAY . must take care hor .hope the australia trip is still on .. hope to see you soon . LOVE LOVE .

mm . okay . soo . im at home . kinda bored . later going to cut cake for my bro i think . he is kinda hinting me to go out to get him a present . tmr then i get la k . im lazy to go out now . haha .
shall end here . maybe post tmr . wait

YUMITA : are we going tmr ? haha . im lazy to call you . haha .

okay . bye bye .

i guess i never really moved on .
take good care of her ,
i love you

LOVES;

2006-10-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

okay . im posting for some people. haha .

today did not sleep whole night. that means i was studying science from 12 till 6am . haha . i stayed awake with the help of coffee of course and some people online who entertained me , esp manfen ~~(be honoured)~~

the time passed to fast . before i knew it . i was already off to school . hmm . was really tired . as the last time i slept was on tuesday night ? and that was only for 3 hours . haha . madness eh ? soo . we had science paper . i dreaded for this paper as mr yew said it would be really hard but it wasnt that difficult after all eh ? haha . i kept forcing myself to open my eyes during the exam . and yes i didnt fall asleep . haha . not like manfen . haha . the OTAS paper tore cause she drooled . haha .

oh yea. before the paper . during morning assembly . manfen showed me her cow for the carbon cycle . haha . it looks like a ladybird cow ! yes with pokkadots !

soo . after science paper . had art paper . i didnt draw it as good as my prep . i was too tired and didnt have the mood i guess . hope i will still pass yea ? haha

after art we checked our homeecon marks (: . i got 36/50 . not bad A2 . mm . hope my practical can pull my marks up to make it an A1 . mm . after that took bus home with yumita and daryl .

YUMITA ! cheer up yeah. dont cry . smile smile . everything will be fine soon . dont worry have faith . love love . looking forward to going to johor with you on monday (:

soo . went home guess whats the first thing i did ?

haha . on aircon and SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPP ! ZZZZzzzz . shiok . but i was awaken by my bro friend and karina's call . haha .

but still i had sleep . i miss my sleep . im going to sleeep later too . weee . sleeeeeeep ((:

but first i need to study my maths .

god . i need an A1 . please please !

LOVES ;

2006-10-06T23:46:00.000+08:00

im not suppose to be blogging . but i just can't leave my blog so deserted . haha . next time no one will visit . haha . and just feel like saying everything out (:

today had history and homeecon paper . went well . should be able to get a B or maybe if I'm lucky an A perhaps .

went to eat at KFC with manfen and yumita . Long time we three haven't gone out together huh . Had a great time laughing at many people . After eating me and yumita went home together . We were really stuffed , so we decided to walk more to digest our food . We walked around the HDB blocks there then came back to the bus stop . We looked like retards ok . haha .

Took bus 14 home . haha . The bus driver was retarded . He went round and round . haha . he went through parkway instead of katong then went back to katong then parkway . then the bus exited at KCP there . those who dont know 14 route . 14 ISNT EVEN SUPPOSE TO PASS PARKWAY . HAHA .

me and yumita could have reached home 30 minutes earlier . haha . but thanks so the SMART driver . haha . went home slpt from 3.30 till 5 plus (seowling called) . haha . was late . haha . she already reached when i just woke up . haha . chiong chiong . bathed changed and met them at MP library .

studied quiet little . but talked alot . went to parkway to eat . saw charm (((: and others . haha . others please dont scold me for not mentioning your name . too many people lah (: mm . ate rojak . yum yum .

walked abit . oh yea . singapore haze is getting worse day by day and the air has a certain smell . smelly smelly .

took bus home with yumita .

nothing's the same anymore .
i always thought it would be me & you
but all this was just a dream , a dream i long for

why does everything hurt oh so much ;
boy, tell me why you did this to me

LOVES ;

2006-09-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

im suppose to be studying science .
left abit . but im lazy . haha . nothing seems to be going in

today the day seemed so long . boring day .

everyday i have test . grr =( .

ytd had MT letter writing

today: MT compo

tomorrow: SCIENCE and CME test

thursday :HOMEECON

friday: DNT

next week also got 2 test . grr

then the following week exam starts . omg !
so fast lah !
time passes really fast

i rmb that time i countdown to samuel's bday on my msn .
it was 4mths plus more
now its like in 3 days ?! ?
super fast lah .
my oh my .

someone give me motivation to study please !

target for EOY

english : B4
maths : A1
science : B4
mother tongue : C5 or B4 (impossible)
geography : B3
history :B3
homeecon :A2
dnt :B3
art : (havent received test paper yet)
literature : B4

weee . must start studying like mad ! dont think im going to post till exams are over (:
dont nag okay ? haha . i will post after exams =)

LOVES ;

2006-09-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

haha. people nagging again ! . haha . i know you cant wait to be an ahma but dont need to practise from now =)) ..

today . nth much happened in sch . after sch went home . then met jiayu at bedok interchange . sorry came late =X . wanted to fetch charm but she already finished dc . so went to pp . jiayu thought bedok was four bus stops away from parkway . loser =D

after that met the whole group . sat their for awhile . some of them left . then me charm jiayu was left . waited so christie . took bus 43 . they all went to donna's house . didnt feel like going . so went home .

PS : ANYONE WANTS CAKE ,BROWNIES OR CUPCAKES ?! THEY ARE NICE . HOMEMADE BY MY DADDY =D . AND ARE CHEAP TOO . IF YOU HAVE COME TO MY HOUSE BEFORE YOU KNOW MY FATHER'S CAKES ARE TO DIE FOR . BUY BUY OKAY . LOVE YOU =D

nothing's the same anymore.
everyone's going different paths .
yet im still stuck in the crossroads .

LOVES ;